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i definitely feel less weird now than i did when i was a kid but would be lying if i didn't have a sense that i am uhhh unusual

that said the manner in which i am unusual is largely just a matter of how my temperament cashes out like there is a small number of things that lots of people seem to put up with that i don't tolerate and a few things i can tolerate that most people wouldn't; that's probably the best way to put it

also i submit that "weird 'gifted' kid" is kind of a social script; it's how you interface to the normies like you use a word that's too big or something and it makes them feel uncomfortable so you lean into some kind of clown act so they don't feel as threatened; ie "weird" is quasi-performative

like if i was gonna make a pronouncement about Most People™ it's that they dngaf about understanding things and just want an outcome or a scapegoat so you may not "realize you're weird" as much as realize that being "weird" is an equilibrium state that enables you to get through life to some extent

see I thought this as a kid and it's sort of true to some extent, but I also realized eventually that a bunch of shit that was easy for me was really hard for most people and vice versa. so it wasn't necessarily that they didn't care, but that it was hard, and maybe they gave up at some point.

I think being incurious as an adult is often a coping strategy for some combo of difficulties learning stuff that they were told was important or being punished for curiosity as a kid.