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I'm having a rlly hard time expressing my thoughts bc there are a thousand different nuances,and it's not always easy. I'm kind of regretting some of the things I said yesterday bc I know they don't fully convey what I think. It's just that maybe deep down I have a ->

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personal controversial take on sh that I don't want to go into full detail, but to me it's not always just about punishing yourself through something unpleasant or wrong. People seek relief, release, expression through it. The point isn't to feel bad, it's to feel good-

I don't think he's doing it as mere self inflicted punishment,actually.He genuinely loves rough sex, likes being manhandled,and it's clearly visible how much he wants it and he's enjoying himself in those moments. And I think it's beneficial for him to-

to finally be free to explore himself, and in a safe way, having the control to not be in control. It's liberating and positive for him, and I don't see voluntary self destruction in it, if anything maybe the opposite. But what adds nuance to this-

is his thoughts/feelings underlying it all, the rooted depression and sense of not deserving anything good, which I interpret and feel in both songs. Idk to me the line is thin sometimes. Something right and healthy can still be-