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We used to go all out with decorating for Halloween (until her dementia progressed to the point where she didn't recognize it anymore and would keep asking us to "put those things away" until decorating for any holiday just became kind of pointless)

The weather and overall look outside (leaves changing, cloudy skies, cool temperatures) is also just like it was when dad fell on the stairs and it's getting to a point where, when I'm not thinking about things I used to do with my mom and missing her, I'm replaying his accident over and over

Everything is just in this horrible stasis, for months. I don't know how to break through.