girls. you call each other 'ogrehons' and don't leave the house. that's not enlightened and normal behavior. this is clearly a rationalisation of your anxiety
you shouldn't repress and you should do DIY yes yes etc etc but fretting about lost years is the height of irrationality. you may not look cis but you can look like a pretty woman if you lock the fuck in, log the fuck off, and look after yourself !!