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Feelin vulnerable; maybe others can relate to this: My biggest artistic struggle at this point in my career is letting myself try. I'm deathly afraid to let myself create anything potentially less than my best work yet. 🧵 (1/7)

Not only am I afraid of feeling/"realizing" that I'm not as skilled as I'd hoped, but also putting it out and being perceived as less skilled than I'm capable of. The perception angle primarily comes from anticipating potential employers' eyes, but I do also consider my peers to some extent. (2/7)

This is both in regards to whatever I generally write on social media and specifically WORK that I post (and it's why I rarely actually post anything haha). I'd like to create something new every day, even most days. But it's exhausting to put all of my work under such strict scrutiny. (3/7)

So when I make things, it's a TON of effort to perfect it as much as I can (within the timeframe I have, if applicable). So while everything that I do is charged with an insane amount of thought, my progress is inconsistent and exhausting. And that strangles the enjoyment out of what I do. (4/7)

It's difficult to curtail this, and I've tried many times to just let myself be okay with my work not looking great or sounding great for the sake of just creating/experimenting. But it's tough! Especially with the job market I'm trying to break into, it feels like every little thing matters. (5/7)