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haicat
@hai.cat

another psychosis i had was that the universe was all a hallucination caused by the inability to accept the fundamental truth: that the other and the self are one and the same. that existence is perpetuated by the forced & abusive separation of the other from the self. that the other's existence is

haicat@hai.cat

one time i had a psychosis episode where i thought that universe was just a side effect of some really complex computation and every soul's world line was a branch in the calculation and when you died it was the universe deciding that your branch wouldnt lead to the solution

haicat
@hai.cat

to be a vessel to contain the suffering, and to acknowledge this would shatter the illusory separation and annihilate both. to love the other is to get close. to get close is to draw nearer to annihilation. the only way for existence to persist is to then force the separation again. over and over

haicat
@hai.cat

and that existence is an endless oscillation of the other and self, drawing closer, and pulling apart. endless cycles of love and abuse

haicat
@hai.cat

on god my psychosis makes great world building

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Chicharrón Chacarron
@chicharchacarron.bsky.social

Nah, you too soft, you need to work with a lot of people and be not just an extrovert but the biggest extrovert of all. But you can always write a book and wait for people to dissociate with reality and find you text as the new bible