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haicat
@hai.cat

another psychosis i had was that the universe was all a hallucination caused by the inability to accept the fundamental truth: that the other and the self are one and the same. that existence is perpetuated by the forced & abusive separation of the other from the self. that the other's existence is

haicat@hai.cat

one time i had a psychosis episode where i thought that universe was just a side effect of some really complex computation and every soul's world line was a branch in the calculation and when you died it was the universe deciding that your branch wouldnt lead to the solution

haicat
@hai.cat

im familiar with them and yeah i realize there's very close similarities but there's subtle differences that i can't really articulate unfortunately. u just kinda had to be there (in my brain lol)

haicat
@hai.cat

like it was very *geometrical* and i realize that does not clear it up in the slightest u just gotta trust that my flavor of crazy is unique and special xD

haicat
@hai.cat

also the singularity i saw was definitely not something id say was "desirable" to achieve like if that's what ppl call enlightenment i want nothing to do with it. a more desirable state would be lowering the oscillations into a parallel flow rather than letting it collapse entirely

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