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My dad is such a fucking asshole. He doesn't seem to understand that "high functioning autism" doesn't mean that I'm capable of flipping a switch and no longer having the issues that I have. He doesn't seem to understand how hard it is for me to will myself to do fucking anything. (1/8)

He doesn't seem to understand that the job market is fucking atrocious right now and the chances of me getting anything within walking distance are little to none. He wants me to have a job by April 1st. That is in 8 fucking days. He is forcing me to make my room spotless and pushing me to do (2/8)

all sorts of shit because of me dropping out of college, because apparently he can't understand that I simply can't fucking handle college. He already changed the wifi password on me and hes eventually going to stop paying for my phone bill too. (3/8)

It's only a matter of time until he kicks me out. He says he does it because he loves me and wants me to do better but to me it comes off as a pissed off parent that his bum fuck child cant meet his standards because he refuses to believe that I am trying my hardest here. (4/8)

I have been trying to get some sort of remote job to make ends meet because all he really wants is just for me to get a fucking job so I can contribute to the household but everything he is doing is just making it harder for me to even do that. (5/8)

I dunno maybe I really am just a lazy piece of shit asshole, cuz that's what he seems to see me as. He gets pissed off when I have mental breakdowns, when I show any sign of being upset at the things he is doing to make my life worse, and not once in the past two years has it felt like (6/8)

he actually loves me at all. I don't know what to do anymore man. I fucking hate living here but I have nowhere else to do. I hate not having a job but I can't fucking get one outside of walking distance because I lack a car or any form of transportation. I'm so fucking tired. (7/8)