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Did some reading and apparently my set of conditions can mirror end stage heart failure despite my organs appearing okay. Cool cool. Things aren’t working at the cellular level so for example, my blood isn’t transporting enough oxygen, which makes them starved. Cool. 🫠

Mix with it the combination that the neurologist told me of my autonomic system management making my CSF fluid levels too high… I can see why he said things are ‘unfortunate’. I am S T R U G G L I N G

And yet… I’m here, with the WILL of what I once was. An athlete. But current health means even the littlest (I mean less than 10 mins) worth of movement means it’s making me crash with post exersional malaise (PEM). Which makes things REALLY hard to get out of this doom loop.

And it’s not even decent movement… it’s just basic movement. :/ And then my facial nerves started to throw extreme pain at me when I was eating and breathing, so dentist said maybe a wisdom tooth extraction might help…

It’s not even easy to fix. Chances are I might need a stunt in my brain. GP has referred me to haem as well because my blood isn’t doing the oxygen transportation thing… Meanwhile, my back up body systems are essentially in debt and have been for so long, that I’m just on reserve.

Not terminal, which is fantastic. But it just feels like my very little tolerance window is getting smaller and smaller, and the traditional fixes make me worse.