I don't like TL;DR stuff but I feel this needs some explaining. I've been afraid to say anything that's been eating me up. I hate drama-riddled "manifestos" but I need to explain this to move on. TL;DR: I'm being stalked + dealing with some major trauma that triggered catatonia.
Might have found the source of the catatonia. Still gonna take it easy a bit while I recover, but I think by October I'll be fine again to drive.