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I don't like TL;DR stuff but I feel this needs some explaining. I've been afraid to say anything that's been eating me up. I hate drama-riddled "manifestos" but I need to explain this to move on. TL;DR: I'm being stalked + dealing with some major trauma that triggered catatonia.

Back in 2023, a former friend of mine was accused to (and admitted, as I've seen the screenshots of her admission on her website/twitter when it was active). Before seeing the screenshots, I believed it to be a psyop, but I quickly retracted that once I saw the evidence.

There were sexual harassment things she did to at least one other person (who I have on authority wants to remain on the down low because they do not want to be mobbed). Given what I've faced, I'm completely understanding of wanting to stay out of this person and her crew's line of sight.

Since then, me and at least one other friend of mine has been stalked for speaking out in the past/present. Every post of ours is scoured and twisted - even if it has nothing to do with her - despite blocking her and other people who have defender her.

To clarify as the editing box ate part of this: The person in question was accused of grooming and predatory behaviour. bsky.app/profile/sany...

The elephant in the room is this person in question is trans. She retracted her admission and is now using being LGBTQ+ as a shield from her actions. As a trans/enby person myself, I am appalled at this. This just makes us all look bad at a time where our civil rights are being mangled!

I'll say what needs to be said: No, trans people aren't groomers. Being trans has nothing to do with that. It's just we're a minority, so when someone does something immoral, it's easier to paint us all as such to fit fascistic agendas.

... since then I've been threatened to "fix my heart or die" by one of her friends. I've had people DMing me on Discord fishing for information. I've even seen this person interacting with slanderous videos about me and my game and my publisher.

There's nothing I can do to stop _any_ of this except minimize my presence on BSky at a time I wanna show off my art more as a resistance against AI slop and fascism. I feel I'm being censored by someone who is claiming to be censored when she was removed from the community to protect people.

The screenshot was hosted on Discord so the link died, but I remember seeing her boyfriend threatening anyone who believed this with violence. I wish I had saved that.

I'm tired of being quiet and silenced into a corner. Mari the Deer/Marisa the Magician, you disgust me. You harass me, my friends, and I'm done with all of it. You're using being trans as a shield from your criticisms. Fuck off with that shit.

This harassment, combined with country/world stage poltics, combined with other trauma processing... one day I snapped and I became catatonic. I haven't lost consciousness like that since 2014. Schizoaffective is one hell of a fucking thing people.

The other trauma I'm going through is much easier to sort out because it involves a few people who actually mean well and are actually talking to me about it like adults... and aren't accused of doing horrific shit. It's still trauma though.

I admit posting this was not easy for me. But it took me a few days of trauma processing and finally actually showing emotions other than rigid stubbornness. I fucking cried about a bunch of things. Including how much I didnt' wanna go home from Quakecon... alot of my friends were there ;_;

for the first time in a long time I'm feeling emotions and being okay with that. I'd rather feel emotions and be honest with myself...