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@a-rir.bsky.social

𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚌 𝚐𝚘𝚘𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚡𝚒𝚘𝚞𝚜 𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎 𝚖𝚘𝚜𝚝𝚕𝚢 𝚙𝟻 𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚘/𝚓𝚘𝚔𝚎𝚛 (ぺごジョカ) https://reeruh.carrd.co/

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@a-rir.bsky.social

i..i.m.cryin.. finally got hero nendoroid doll.. didn't expect that i finally would use this nendoroid more set with cat ears that i bought long time ago... cute.. .

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@a-rir.bsky.social

.. i feel strange.. at least for now i can't draw different faces for some reason (drawing one character for four years..) yet they're have some similarities and im just dying.. hope i'll manage quite fast what face i want for lulu.. still can't catch the face i want for p5 hero..

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@a-rir.bsky.social

im worthless and shouldn't exist.. drawings is the only things i have... yet they're just meaningless because im nothing.. forgive me.. it's all my fault..

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@a-rir.bsky.social

- is that an invitation to be on top? - it doesn't matter to me whether you're on top or bottom; most important thing is that you're right here with me. - that sounds so mushy... i like it ♡

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@a-rir.bsky.social

bad.. want be able to draw different things calmly.. still feel too bad and anxious when it's not p5.. that's.. like 'take your time' , do things as possible, slowly if needed, etc, but.. it hurts almost physically because of rising anxiety..

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@a-rir.bsky.social

even if i know that p5 is my biggest love now and i like code geass, ow so want to draw it too, still don't know how to handle this anxiety.. it's fine do everything little by little.. but what to do with this hurting feeling to become able draw different things calmly.. p5..such a bless and curse..

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@a-rir.bsky.social

im thankful for people here and there, thanks for your attention support and also patience with this account because i really want to act freely here, to post things whenever i want and no matter what it is, write anything and etc, thabk you;;

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@a-rir.bsky.social

even if my feelings about trying to do this are mixed i got a thought that october is good time to even try because there's a lot of 'inktober' prompt lists and i found one that i like, i like stamps so..

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@a-rir.bsky.social

silly.. what to do with two new tiny sketchbooks.. of course decorate them with own stickers.. still.. confused.. that intention to try do smth not in digital.. for better or not..

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@a-rir.bsky.social

nooooo i lost my first place my joker second now whatever im still surprised that i got such high place like i was sure my build isn't good or anything but i guess it's good enough ( ´ ꒳ ` )

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@a-rir.bsky.social

i know that maybe my rank should be lower because users should login to let their rank upload to system if i understood it correctly but!! but still..it so .. it's so silly..but im happy..