ArkStranger Rubberdolly

ArkStranger Rubberdolly

@arkstranger.bsky.social

Experienced latex connoisseur. Model, designer and part time vinyl record enjoyer. Male, 33yo πŸŽ€ More at: https://links.arkstranger.com/

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I’m still recovering from a surgery I had a week and a half ago. Nothing serious, just fixing a long-standing issue. The first week was painful, ngl. It’s a good thing I didn’t know what it would feel like; otherwise, I might not have gone through with it. Thankfully, feeling much better now.

Just dropped a brand-new latex photoshoot on my Patreon! This photo pack is available exclusively there as a special thank-you gift to all of my amazing supporters. Thank you for making my work possible, hope you like it! :3

I stumbled upon details regarding the case of Lindsay Clancy - and, in particular, the reactions of a certain group of people to it. This only deepened my disillusionment with this world. Not gonna even go into detail, just gonna accept this fact. It's very telling on the current state of humanity.

I'm not even visiting the discover page on bluesky anymore, instead sticking to viewing pages that I follow. I almost managed to remove politics, but instead, a lot of dick pics/vids started appearing, with me showing zero sings of being interested in such content. That's where I draw the lone.

That's my personal preference, but I simply don't like seeing stranger's genitals. Bluesky somehow thinks I do, even though I begged it to show me latex. It's actually worse than constantly seeing posts about american politics.

It is awful not to trust oneself. I fear that interacting with people will only cause them harm, and that fear just makes me withdraw even further. I don’t want to waste people’s time. I have no idea how to fix this problem... My mindset seems irreversibly damaged. I just want to feel nothing.

Low self-esteem is off-putting to people, and I suspect that if I met myself, I wouldn't want to interact with such a person. But I don't know how to raise my self-esteem. My life's mission has failed, and I no longer have the strength to go on. I am deeply disappointed in myself.

I also realized that, given my social anxiety, I’m unlikely to build a career in the world of latex, because it requires social connections that I can’t form due to my fear of people. On top of that, my self-esteem keeps plummeting. It feels like I won’t be able to solve these problems.

I have tried countless times to overcome anxiety, but it keeps coming back every time. I suspect that immersing myself in the world of latex has only made the problem worse. Latex seems to offer only a temporary escape, and other latex fans can’t help me, because they often struggle with anxiety too

I don’t know how to be vulnerable or trust people. Every time I decide to try, I’m overcome by the fear that others will mistake it for weakness and inevitably hurt me or use me for their own gain. Even when I’m around people who inspire trust, I find myself shutting down uncontrollably.

The problem that worries me most right now is that I shut myself off from people, especially emotionally. In doing so, I forget that people value emotions above all else, and I hope they will come to love me through my outfits. That fails, and I don't know what to do. I don't know how to open up.

The last few years (especially 2025) have been terrible for me, particularly regarding relationships with people around. The state of the world only deepens my disillusionment with humanity. Right now, I am more reluctant than ever to trust people and myself, yet it only makes my life miserable.

Picture of me wearing latex for the first time, 2017. An outfit like that seemed like something out of a pure fantasy. Before, in my eyes, latex was something strictly pornogtaphic and lacked aesthetics. That dress changed my view forever. It turned out that latex could be cute and beautiful πŸ’œπŸ–€

Seriously, I have been wanting a pony gear for many years, but the fact that very few manufacturers in the world produced it, resulting in crazy prices, have made it impossible for me... until now. I'm very thrilled that more brands begin to offer pony stuffπŸ”₯

ArkStranger Rubberdolly@arkstranger.bsky.social

I have successfully turned myself into a latex pony! 🐴 It's a long dream finally come true... πŸ’— Pony mask & harness: @feturax.bsky.social

A good friend gifted me a figurine of Angel Dust :3 Soooo happy! I adore this character so much. I should try and get a kigu mask, or a latex inflatable mask of him. Really wanna transform into Angel ❀️

For some reason, my Discover page is now filled with post from normal people, posting about mundane stuff like what they ate for breakfast or how they don't like their job. I never interacted with such posts before. Is Bluesky algorithm broken? It completely ignores my desire to see more latex stuff

Anubis steps out of the shadows in a sleek, all-black latex suit paired with an intricate jackal mask. Defined by high-gloss details, buckled platform boots, and a tailored silhouette, this is the ultimate modern update for the guardian of the Underworld ♠️

For weeks, I've begged Bluesky to remove politics from my feed, and repeatedly asked it to show me more latex. Good news is, politics are now gone. Bad news, it's been replaced with other irrelevant stuff that I have zero interest in, instead of latex. Algorithm here works in mysterious ways...

Put on my new latex pony outfit yesterday and managed to get some fun videos in! It was definitely the hardest home session I've ever done (first time in pony boots + constant mask lenses fogging = utter annoyance). Editing everything now and low-key shocked that it actually looks decent.

Imagine being sealed in smooth black latex, isolated from the outside world as your senses narrow down to the rubber against your skin. You feel yourself change... Becoming sleek, immaculate, and driven by a deep, primal urge for action. Cosmic Wolf has been unleashed to this world ♠️

Maybe the fact that I let my negative feelings out did help. I'm feeling a slight sense of inspiration again. If it continues, I may finally try on my new latex pony outfit which did arrive a few days ago. It was a huge bummer, having a new outfit on your hands while being in a bad state of mind.

Still reluctant to start doing p*rn, because I suspect I wouldn't be able to handle it mentally. Many people over the years have suggested that it would be perfect for me, with my physique and outfits. TBH, I sometimes enjoy producing 18+ stuff just for fun, but sharing it on the web... I dunno man.

How the hell are AI "artists" and "models" are able to get hundreds of paid subscribers on patreon and other sites, and I, after spending thousands of $ and many hours on my outfits and studio shoots, wasn't able to get more than one? Is this what awaits us in the future?.. Slop replacing real work?

I'm terrible at pushing my work, mostly because I do evethything myself and attracting an audience is serious work. But at this point I wonder, is doing p*rn the only option left to generate at least some money through? Is this how it works? Or my content is so terrible that even that wouldn't help?