Aux-Barking

This Night Is Nice #myart

Wagging my stupid FFFUCKING Tail AWRFFF'ing my ffffffucking BARK..

I dunno... I'm sooo super super grateful and thankful for the friends that i have who have patience for me... i really dont feel like I deserve any of the grace they give me awrrffff... I need a fucking hug lmao... i dunno... I'm so thankful for everyone's grace... and patience.. awrfff...

And like it makes it SOOOoooo hard to fucking FOCUS like holy shit... I'm permanently locked the fuck out and I just get overwhelmed cause everything's happening at once and like... i just cant zone in... like my mind just takes forever to focus and process shit like... i dunno...

Like going for walks helps... but i don't know... its always haunting me.. I'm unfortunately immune to a dozen different antidepressants just cause I was on them for so long? My body builds a weird tolerance to things.. I constantly feel like trying to squirm out from beneath a parked car...

My therapists says I'm supposed to just "sit with it" and "feel it" instead of trying to numb it but sitting with it just makes it grow stronger.. it only intensifies.. with no end points its just... its there.. like someone's behind me with a gun its just... always present...

They say your supposed to sit with that pain... with the grief... and thats how you process it... or at least thats how your supposed to.... at least thats how your recommended to get over it... it hasn't happened for me yet.. the oain of it hasn't been any less numbing... it just feels constant..

C.K. Going Through It. #myart #art #furryart #anthroart #furryartwork

My Legs Hurt. #art that I did yesterday #myart also first time in a while drawing and rendering without a reference

Awrfff im so sleep deprived eheh #myart #art

We Can All Get Better... We Have To.. #myart literally imagine all those lines.. i did the background on an 8 hour bender roughly and then like.. a month something later I finally finished it xD (please enjoy this it literally took me so long ;w; )

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I was supposed to be dead by now dude... (it) was supposed to kill me.... ......awrffff :( I'm not a good wolf awrffffff :((((((

I'm sorry:((( I was spossed to die friday... that was supposed to be the end it it... i dont k ow how... or why... but I'm still alive...

I'm really embarked to have ptsd eheh.... i hate that somedays I just.... somedays I just black out with no recollection..... i just wake afterwards and whatever happened happened...

PLEASE JUST TELL ME I'M A GOOD WOLF AND PET ME This was spossed 2 be a quick 10 min vent piece.. I got possessed.. #art #myart #furry #furryart #furryartist #wolffurry #furryartwork #anthro #anthroartwork #digitalart #fursonaart #fursona #artwork

Sorry 4 depresso posting awrfff x3 I do like having a sort of vent space ehehhh

I think I'm terrified of being alone :( I think I invite so much bad company into my lofe cause I'm just scared of how much it hurts to sit with the grief of everything... its hurts... it always hurts... and even when I do sit with it.. it never gets less painful... i miss my loved ones...

Awrffff I need this weekend to have a weekend.... awrff... #rambles 0

Awrfff like it was bad :P I used to have nightmares on the regular where hundreds of disembodied hands would reach out of nowhere and drag me to hell and I'd wake up screaming eheh... bless my partners patience awrff.. it still happens but.. more rarely now thanks 2 my desensitization efforts :P~

Awrff ive gotten way better at letting myself be petted and touched this year which in really proud of :3 I'm still weary as fuck of physical contact but~ ..... I'm really proud of how much ive desensitized myself to physical contact and such...

Awrff I'm kinda scared to be alone :P like the darkness has hands... and it's waiting to drag me away :P... #rambles

Awrffff :((((((((

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I still struggle to feel like I deserve it.. i feel like this life is too good for me? I slept with my back against a wall some days.. so nobody would steal my shit from my lap.. I still have nightmares sometimes of arms reaching out to grab me.. Anyways.. I'm beyond words 4 greatful I'm where I am

Awrff.. Its coming up on 1 year since I was first made homeless. Do you have any idea.. how hard it is? To convince yourself yer still human.. that you have worth.. that you still deserve a place amongst society.. after coming back from that?.. I just got housed past April.. I still feel.. off..

Disturbed (2024) redraw! Uh-ah-ah-ah... queue the music! Sksk #furry #furryart #art

Heres the old old old drawing, from god knows when, that its based on. Just freehand fucking around, the 2024 has a lot more structure... AND 4 WHOLE PAWS THAT DONT LOOK LIKE SHIT!!! impressive. Tbh i dont like the old one, but good for comparing nonetheless :] improvement!

Idk who the creature is but I relate to him in this one gif

Lie to corporations

Sonar from Dispatch, but casual

Thank you guys for the love on this!! Twitter was NOT having it 😅