Basstastic

a few eye doodles trying to motivate the art doings.

HO HO HO! Merry Halloween! 🎃

I hate this human social system so much. I need someone to take me and pull me through it. I am not good at reaching out. People do not reach for others anymore. I will be attempting to reach out in ways going forward. I'm not sure what to do.

The whole problem right now is the government's involvement with companies. The government is representative of the people and companies are by nature anti people. That is the whole reason unions exist. If the government is pro companies then it is anti people. NOT of the people.

As I get older everything turns into a worry.

It is entirely too cold right now

We are getting some of the snow stuff. Everything is shut down no one knows what to do.

Merry christmas everyone! 🎄🎁

My acute depression is gone and I think I know what helped. It sounds crazy but a bowl of fiber cereal... I kind of want it to happen again to test, but also never want that to happen again. That was an awful few days. 😌

Well the I want to dies came back but later at night and not as bad. If I am starting to have seasonal depression this is going to suck.

Well that was wild I feel better today, but we will see if it holds. I might delete some of that or just let it stand. I don't think it hurts anyone. Sorry if I worry anyone. It was not good.

Feeling a bit better. Less cold and down. This had better not become a regular thing. It may have been the B vitamins or just time.

i'm afraid to sleep though I know it might help

hey, hi, hello!

I have not felt this bad in a long time. Why is this happening now. Is it because I've been pushing myself to get things done? This fucking sucks man...

I have been feeling cold since this started. Going to try to warm up.

I guess I got stuck as a child why does time not move right for me.

Have I been this unhappy all this time. Has ADD robbed me of so much of my life, Or depression. Some one want me around please why am I suddenly feeling like this.

I feel like reality is hitting me all at once. Like I lost time and it's all hitting me now. Is this depression, some kind of mid life crisis. I want to feel better, but I don't know what's wrong. Time is marked by what you do but nothing I do makes time in my head. It all just slips away.

I hope I don't forget what I have learned here. I don't want to slide down there again like I have before. How can I make this permanent.

I need friends. I want people around, but I hate the obligation people bring. I need to be able to disappear but I won't come back on my own. Some one needs to reach for me. Pull me to be social I won't do it on my own.

I'm so afraid of doing things I don't what to do. I'm starting to do things again, but the last time I did things it broke me. I hope some freedom helps, this time and does not make it worse. I feel so terrible right now I'm just waiting for this feeling to pass. Writing it down so I can remember.

figuring out how my parents fucked me up, and I don't know what to do about it

Still wanting to post more so uhhh ummm have a this!

Not going back to twitter. If you are not here I'm sorry.

I am always amazed at how much grease I get on me while doing anything with a tractor.

Merry Halloween!

Hey... I care about you... Yes YOU!

I done did it!

I know it's not morning but I need to post something so here you go.

I'm going to try once again to post more than never... Starting in the morning.