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I officially moved to a safer place. It was a long journey, but I feel like I can finally breathe for the first time in awhile

The red button/blue button debate is a hell of an insight into how our society is in relation to each other, and how often we are compelled to talk past each other instead of to reach other

America is dead. It died in 2008 when the rich and powerful sacrificed the futures of an entire generation for a quick buck and were bailed out for it. The country has been on life support ever since but the body is starting to rot. It's not coming back. It can't be fixed.

Daily reminder that leftists do not exist in a superimposed state where they are in multiple positions at the same time. What I mean is... Either leftists don't matter and you can shut up about leftist votes. Or leftists are needed, and you need to start listening to them.

This boys and girls, is what we call tyranny.

Just got my hair done

And there you have it. Push a neo lib enough and you'll get to the truth. "Fascism is bad, but they are honest and that makes them better than leftists." And they wonder why leftists aren't tripping over themselves to vote for Dems. Liberals feel closer to Nazis than leftists.

What do you call it, even you feel every aspect of suicidal ideation... Except for the "wanting to be dead" bit?

I wish people would stop pretending that I matter. It would be so much easier to "clock out" if I wasnt gaslit into believing that I'm loved.

It's so weird feeling both a compulsion to self harm and a strong aversion to not self harm. Emotions are fucking weird

Electrolysis fkin hurts. 24 hours past the appointment and my chin is still sore

Someone clocked me this week walking out of a bathroom. No confrontation but the look of disgust on the woman's face hurt...a lot. I've always believed that my transition is working, but times like this let the doubt creep in.

Hey guys, gals, and nb pals. Just got off work and heading home. Finished my first round of voice therapy not too long ago. Not being misgendered as much feels so good :3

Started electrolysis in earnest today. It's so painful but I just need to power through it

Happy 4th. Not feeling very patriotic this year. You can only see stuffy rich fucks sell out people's futures until you just kind of get sick of it

End of the week. Wasn't an easy one this week but I saw it through to the end. Impressed myself at how much I got done. Wish I could learn to keep the limiters on.

The good thing about pushing yourself past 100% is that eventually you stop feeling pain when exhaustion reaches a certain point. You stop feeling but at least it doesn't hurt

Anyone else spend their days questioning why they are still alive? Not like a "I should be dead" but like a "why am I still trying?". It's not like things are ever going to get better. The best it's ever going to get has long passed.

Happy pride. Did my nails up special this year.

Did my first voice training today. This is going to be hard and frustrating but it's clear I'd have never been able to do this alone

Trans person kills themselves People online glorify it and take pleasure in them being gone I then have to wonder again if choosing life as a trans person instead of a stain on the front of a train was the right call Am I bettering the world by being here?

Got a new dress. Took a selfie.

Been a busy time to be alive. Having to step away from the Internet more. just not safe online for folks like me.

Wore my new dress to work today. Tried to find my sash to go with it but ran out of time. Oh well.

I've had thoughts about what to do with my hair color next. I want to do a red/orange/yellow variant that looks like fire. But I wonder if it's even possible

Didn't celebrate mother's Day this year. My mom wanted to lump it in with birthdays this year. But after still won't use her daughter's name, and can't promise her husband will be cordial so I stayed home

A photo of my cat. Lady Fluffington. Forcibly affectionate would be the best way I can describe her.

Wife had to put her dog down today 2 things I have observed. I'm not strong enough to be who she needs me to be during this painful time The hour they gave her to say good bye and share memories with employees felt exceptionally cruel, and I don't know why

Happy birthday to me... Happy birthday to me...

My friends always tell me I look pretty. I wish I could see what they see

My family is celebrating my birthday this weekend. I asked my mom if she could make sure her husband does deadname me when they sing happy birthday. That was too much of an ask. Guess who isn't attending their party...

Weekends coming up. I see you not doing something for yourself...>_>

So happy it's almost the weekend

Tuesday to me always feels like the last poptart in the box. It's nice to enjoy, but it's gotten a little stale and you're gonna have the extra work getting a new box.

Morning friends. Back to the ol grind.

Things they don't prepare you for transition later in life. Makeup as a whole is a generational education. Like you can read tutorials but there's a directness to it that you really only get in person that's needed, especially if you've never done it before. No family to help me learn T_T

Hey babies, we made it through another week. One more day and we can get our brief respite

Rainy Thursday. Glad I decided to work from home today. World is still managing to get scarier, trying to find the sun.

Here's your daily reminder. Due process for some is due process for none. If some people are not entitled to it then none of us are guaranteed it.

Another document down. Things moved fast after the courts made their ruling. Getting closer and closer to putting the old me to rest

Things they don't tell you when you do HRT. Your sex drive can go up, but your sex capability plummets. Nothing more frustrating than being in the mood and your hardware won't pick up the phone.

Happy Easter everyone. Also happy 20th. Hope you all are staying safe today ^_^

Today's thoughts. I miss the comforts of crawling into bed.

Today's got some cloudy skies. Messed up and ruined my time schedule today and I don't know if I'm going to recover

Made progress yesterday Driver's license updated with new name. Gender marker still locked behind birth certificate Tomorrow it's social security. Then documents get mailed to birth state to update the last document. So close to no more dead naming at work.