🔞Emily Dioptase (it/she)

🔞Emily Dioptase (it/she)

@catfag.bsky.social

• Transfem, polyam, autistic, etc. • 24 years old, sadly. • Unstable sometimes, sorry. • Primarily t4t • I am just a cat. Treat me like one. ΘΔ • No minors, please. • Main: @dioptasesystem.bsky.social • Pfp by my girlfriend: @perfectsystemdx.bsky.social

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I'm glad that people are making porn of minecraft blub (I really need to do that also at some point) but like why is there only humanized versions? Like I get it I love a conventionally attractive slime girl as much as anyone else but can't you see we have something special on our hands here

Do you ever just suddenly have to actively and constantly suppress a vital part of your communication and self expression for the foreseeable future and whenever you do it you feel like part of you is dying and your whole body is rotting away and everything is closing in on you or is that just me

I really don't want to completely lose myself but I straight up feel like if I felt like I do now at all times going forward I'll probably just straight up become a different person entirely and I'm so fucking scared

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all the artists and creatives you love are fucked in the head and they are all terrified of you finding out and killing them for it

Today has been a very bad combination of physical pain and mental illness. I need to cry but I can't tell if it's because I'm a bad and unlovable person and everyone will leave me or if it's because my arms feel like they're going to fall off and my legs are somehow worse than that.

I don't care if I'm "under the influence and therefore not capable of consent right now" I want someone to fuck me until I pass out and then keep fucking my motionless body I'm such a fucking slut ahaha isn't this like so vulnerable and cute of meee :3

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I don't care if I'm "under the influence and therefore not capable of consent right now" I want someone to fuck me until I pass out and then keep fucking my motionless body I'm such a fucking slut ahaha isn't this like so vulnerable and cute of meee :3

I'll never be lovable. All anyone sees me as is a ticking time bomb until another mood swing. Nobody trusts me, because I can't be trusted. I literally struggle to see others as conscious beings in the same way that I see myself, how could I possibly be anything more than a waste of time?

I need to stop pretending anyone will ever care. They'll just find some shit to make a callout over and leave as soon as possible. As always. And then everyone else will follow suit, and I'll be nothing again. Because nobody actually cares about anyone anymore. They all just want a harassment target