Cianon

Cianon

@ciananigans.bsky.social

27 | worm-off-the-string acct | cato is making me put “elf” in my account description so he can find me in the search | largely me yelling about my fucked up spine rn. prayer circle that morale improves

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Michael Kartawinata
@lazypandaart.bsky.social

Replying to @juliedillon.bsky.social

I also hate this idea that "dooming=being realistic" which is not how being realistic works at all. It shouldn't be coupled with punching down the desire for positive change, that's not "being real", that's being a cynical asshole, by which I'm getting tired of seeing.

Michael Kartawinata@lazypandaart.bsky.social

Anytime I see someone dooming in the face of positive change, its the equivalent of someone laying in the middle of a littered park, doing nothing, while everyone else cleans up around them until the park is clean except where they're laying while they sigh "What's the point?"

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

Being super dehydrated and like. needing sodium on a medical level. Has resulted in this situation where hearing the words “Caesar Salad” fill me with such an intense desperation that I need to start crashing through walls

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

Like I can genuinely tank and even enjoy the hottest sauces in hot sauce shops. The only ones I haven’t tried are the ones that require waivers, but at that point, I feel like they’re just existing for macho bragging rights over actual flavour

Cianon@ciananigans.bsky.social

Yes I gave myself a sore because I uhhhh got the “spoon access” and “sprinkle” holes of the red pepper container mixed up and rolled with it instead of asking for a new piece of pizza

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

Yes I gave myself a sore because I uhhhh got the “spoon access” and “sprinkle” holes of the red pepper container mixed up and rolled with it instead of asking for a new piece of pizza

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

Idk what’s up with the Winston mentions but it’s fondly reminding me of when I was in a semi popular Overwatch crack rp group on tumblr

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Fizzy 🤴🏼🌙 🍲
@fizzix.bsky.social

HEY GANG - DID YOU KNOW THAT NVIDIA JUST PUT ALL OUR GPUS INTO REMOTE ACCESS MODE FOR SLOP AGENTS TO CONNECT TO? NVIDIA APP > SETTINGS > FEATURES > ALLOW AGENT ACCESS > OFF TURN THAT SHIT OFF

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

Hearing normies talk about insanely stigmatized mental health conditions is weird as hell bc that’s literally just you and any art school friend group

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

it is really funny being told by therapists that I can’t have bpd bc I’m too functional and “personality disorders are baked in and require a lot of effort to keep in check” and you’re like <voice of someone channeling the discipline of a shaolin monk 24/7> “ye”

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

I’ve been running into An Issue where I uuuu don’t have energy to do my PT exercises . But if I don’t do them every day well. Bad things will occur

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Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

Deadass like all of my friends are doing activities together this weekend together or just independently and my parents are away so I’m like. I will have my anxiety/grief attack at home and then go to work ig

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

I do wish they like. Didn’t forget about me when making arrangements. It doesn’t feel good being alone and sad partially bc a bunch of your friends forgot to invite you to a group activity lol

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

I’ve been running into An Issue where I uuuu don’t have energy to do my PT exercises . But if I don’t do them every day well. Bad things will occur

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

Had a really rough night physically last night that then led to me like. Waking up in total delirium being like “I can’t sleep I should get my dog” several times and I’ve been on off crying all day bc he is gone so maybe. Perhaps. I should do my exercises so I don’t wake up like that

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

I do not like this new development where I will try to sleep and have a focal seizure bc something got squashed and wake up stressed and like. Desperately wanting my dog that passed a month and a half ago.

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

Pouring one out for the Brits right now. The Philadelphia Eagles just lost in London and the Philly sports fans have descended upon the UK.

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Alessia, Queen-ut-Cyrod
@paravant.myatproto.social

Remember the Israeli Taylor Swift stan that refused to join the IDF and went to prison over it. And continued posting from the prison by writing stuff for her friend to post to the account.

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

Re: lp I Not being able to feel hunger is genuinely really really annoying, esp when I have really bad working memory issues TT_TT I got dinner and today lunch for myself yesterday bc I knew I’d be pressed for time and fucking . Forgot abt it until it went bad. I hope shit’s open tonight

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

Accidentally overbooked myself w work and dr appts and have been too busy to stop for food for like a day and a half I feel like booboo the fool

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

Coworker saw that I was covered in bruises and was like “omg are you okay” and I was like. “Yeah I’m fine I just kept overzealously crashing into a tree at The Haunt” and she was like. “the what” and I was like “Haunted House ™”

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

I’m supposed to be like… taking a break to focus on my health, and I like. Scheduled myself for 8-12 hour days instead of 12-16 hour days and then realized that’s. Not a break aaaa

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

I’m baffled as to how we ended up in a world where ppl only know about chiropractors (often unlicensed; often dangerous), when osteopaths (do adjustments but are actual DOs) exist…

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

I get adjustments from my PT every week, and. I assure u it’s nnnnnot like how chiros do it dhdhd not to mention that adjustments don’t do diddly squat if you don’t strengthen the muscles around the joint to keep it in place, hypermobile or not

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

Pineapples - berries Bananas - berries Strawberries - Not Berries Raspberries - Not Berries every day we stray further from god’s light

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

Incredible new maneuvers (figuring out how to rotate my C1 back into place) (not like cracking just like. Gently applying pressure w my index fingers until the muscle spasm gives and it slides back in) (I realize I should Not do this but the Problem is that I really like breathing u_u)

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

Like okay. Imagine this. U feel like you have a sandbag on ur chest and like ur right nostril is clogged (this isn’t the case) U press ur fingers on what feels like a skull ridge (but only on the left?) for ~20 sec Ur like “oh maybe this is my skull” It’s suddenly moves? Breathing.exe Mfw

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

I KNOW I YAP ABOUT MY STUPID NECK A LOT BUT ASIDE FROM SUCKING IT’S ALSO JUST??? REALLY WEIRD???? So I have this constant urge to go like “Bro U Seen This Shit?”

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

I got my head put back in place today and a caught ligament freed up and I feel better than I have in a whole ass week, and bc of that I’m like “YAY I WANNA DRAW” but. Is it a trap that will make my skull slide out of place again

Cianon
@ciananigans.bsky.social

Fr protip. They always be saying put heat on it. And while heat does have its merits, cold is SSSOOOOOO good for making nerves less Cross

Cianon@ciananigans.bsky.social

Freeze drying my left occipital nerve with a bag of extremely cold French fries and praying it makes the Ouch Oof Ow My Bones go away