Caize (unwell)

Caize (unwell)

@cloudy-rom.bsky.social

18+ followers only please! 24, he/they. irregular artist, musician, and human. 日本語を勉強している do not use my work for anything without permission

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it's painful to have slowly lost all my connections in such a community-based and central interest of mine but it's time to do something about it other than moping ok. ok. ok. ok. ok. hiiiiii

hi! i'm caize, a vocaloid/synthv producer and visual artist (@Caize_ on youtube). you may know my song "ANCHOR" using eleanor forte or you may not. i feel isolated from the community and i want to change that by making new mutuals and friends! (please be 18+!) #vocaloid #vsynth #vocalopost #art

i also like old electronics, cartoons, cats, learning japanese... i'm not good at keeping up with vsynth news/developments but i've loved vocaloid ever since 2011. maybe you could help fill me in or show me your favorite recent songs. i can share some hidden gems. please say hi i'll say hi back

finished watching among us. it's a real hoot. would recommend. if i close my eyes and just listen to the dulcet tones of chrome canyon & ashley johnson maybe i can briefly pretend that my favorite show didn't get tragically cut short, like the life of an innocent crewmate in the hit game "Among Us,"

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i'm trying to softblock minors/ageless accounts but it's not working 😐😐😐😐 they just go back to being followers after i unblock. thanks bluesky well, if you're under 18, please unfollow me. otherwise i may have to just permanently block

i'm trying to softblock minors/ageless accounts but it's not working 😐😐😐😐 they just go back to being followers after i unblock. thanks bluesky well, if you're under 18, please unfollow me. otherwise i may have to just permanently block

i am a paranoid perfectionist who has decided that the safest thing is to shut up and not express myself (in several ways) but oh i'm starting to think that's more in line with ideologies i oppose rather than my own :)

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i can point to my upbringing but it feels like i got More paranoid as time went on 15-year-old openly posting about weird crushes and venting about life online --> ?????? --> adult that thinks if anyone online knows what my hair looks like or that i draw my ocs kissing i'm going to get in Trouble

case in point i posted this and then spent a while involuntarily thinking of possible bad-faith replies i could get and how i would respond i hate that my fears aren't even that unrealistic. there has to be a better way to protect myself than to cut myself down before anyone else does

i am a paranoid perfectionist who has decided that the safest thing is to shut up and not express myself (in several ways) but oh i'm starting to think that's more in line with ideologies i oppose rather than my own :)

i think purging my image of disorder, oddness, drugs, and sexuality for the whims of a pretend audience is not the best maybe on the other hand if i've already omitted that much of myself and become relatively apathetic to engagement maybe i can eventually wean myself off of social media completely

censoring myself so much is antithetical to being an artist, isn't it. nothing even happened to me specifically to make me so scared. am i endangering myself by saying this much? safer to say nothing!

thinking about making my account for adults only, not bc i plan to pivot but to have one less reason to self censor and to make it harder to accuse me of posting inappropriately

if i was born a little sooner i coulda done numbers on early youtube. i can do a silly voice. i got jokes. i coulda done numbers in the early vocaloid community. ignore my modern knowledge and hindsight. yeah i'm bad at posting often but i could be a one-hit wonder. put me in the time machine cmon

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last post about gnp, specifically regarding enochxyz’s personal experience living with them. this is cross posted from his twitter, and links to his original post will be in the comments of this post. docs.google.com/document/d/1...

docs.google.commy experience with ghostI’ve split this document into three parts; the first deals with my personal experience, the second is Ghost’s public incidents, and the third is a list of health resources. I wanted to consolidate eve...

unless some kind of non-compete agreement is in place it's theoretically possible for a different company to bring Not Piko and Not Miriam to synthv. there's money to be made yes

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╔═*.·:·.✧ ✦ ✧.·:·.*═╗ 🔁 RTs appreciated!! 💖 HEY YOU!! Ever wanted to take part in VOCALOID Academic Research? 👥Any listener of VOCALOID music 👥 Any producer/cover artist of VOCALOID music ⏰ Approx. 5-10 minutes Questionnaire ⬇️🔗 ╚═*.·:·.✧ ✦ ✧.·:·.*═╝

i've already gotten a handful of comments expressing excitement that i've posted again, which i didn't expect. i'm used to having followers that don't interact much, or go inactive over the years, and i only have one or two memorable songs, but people remember me and care. it's touching.

the video editing is not quite how i wanted due to the contest deadline and the bad software i used, so maybe it would be nice to remake it to better fit my vision. but on the other hand, maybe it's good enough and i should prioritize getting new things out