Natalie Davis is a giant now

One day I hope I can be half the engineer my rubber duck is 🙏🏾

Hit 40’s on the seated shoulder press today so you already know what it is

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Meant to tell y’all I was given a leadership role at work. Definitely stretching me but for the first time today I woke up feeling like I’ll be able to get my head around my new responsibilities. Amazing how ordered my steps are even when I feel like I’m struggling.

Also when I open this app for longer than 5 seconds, I really gotta move to Blacksky.

Trainer’s so proud of me he almost shed a tear today. Yeah, sometimes life is hard, but I’m harder. Tf

Why yall ain’t tell me them ugly oranges was this good??

Down 30lbs, muscle mass 📈, the gym really saving my life, baby I can MOVE and POWERFULLY

This was a really rough week for me, grief shows up when it wants to. That being said, I’m proud of gentleness I handled myself with. Routines, the gym and my support system can not be defeated. So much gratitude 🙏🏾

Really honed in on being in this world, not of this world rn. It’s the only way I can keep what sanity I have left.

It got bad for ya girl. So I quit drinking, (again), quit sugar, eliminated processed foods, and locked in with a personal trainer 3 days a week. Shits still bad and I may bend but I won’t break.

In this role I finally figured out that it’s not so much about getting it “right” (bc there’s a hundred right ways to do a thing) as it is about doing it the way your team expects to see it done and it’s removed so much stress and self judgement. Shout out to my first 90 days 🚀

I need to tell y’all about the power of asking yourself “What would the person I want to be do right now?” when you want to give in to the heaviness

Because of tech money, my brother is at rest with no lingering debts for my parents to worry about so at least there’s that.

My brother is gone now. I hope I never let him down.

I’ve been up since 5. Could have spent 5-6 crying but no I had to wait until 5 minutes before the workday started. Poor time management tbh

I have two biological relatives that are a part of my life. Knowing that the one that was supposed to bury me will be leaving this earth before I do is incredibly hard. Barring anything unexpected I will be the last one left. I already struggle connecting, I’m not sure how to do this.

Think Ima stop questioning why I always come out on top. It’s my birthright.

My brother finally stabilized enough to leave the hospital today. WON’T HE DO IT???

So much gratitude for all I’ve been given steward over and the ability it’s given me to protect my family from at least some of the cruelties this world has to offer.

Started spending some time on Twitter again for the same reason I watch Fox News from time to time. It’s getting much worse over there in ways you wouldn’t necessarily expect.

Two days in and of course I was right. I have no idea what’s going on but I’m already starting to form some loose frameworks. The way I know by next year I’m going to be an entirely different caliber of dev.

I can’t get over the juxtaposition of the last month. It’s simultaneously been one of the worst months of my life and one of the most successful. I’m just trying to keep the balance so I can continue to be the rock the people depending on me need me to be. So far, so good

Energy!

I really just shifted the whole trajectory of my life AGAIN

Just read something that suggests cirrhosis can mimic metastatic disease? Who can get me to #MedSky? Is this true?

I’ve grown so much. Not enough to feel anger in my personal life and never let it color my behavior, but finally enough to not feel like a failure for being moved to anger. I’ve grown enough to make the same space for myself that I would create for others. Monumental

Oh, here’s the anger

Reminder that, as hard as it can be, if you find some time sit still and listen to your inner voice even in the most trying of times, you might find reserves of strength you never dreamed of and maybe even some growth

Y’all know I don’t beg for engagement but please boost this

Does anyone have any resources to help explain to a developmentally disabled adult that they have cancer in an appropriate way? Are there books for this? I’m so overwhelmed

Fuck cancer. Fuck metastatic disease 💔

Oh, so she wants to be Elonia

I know I haven’t been around much, but you might have noticed that I’ve been a bit unhappy in my role. Imagine how pleased I was to accept a stellar offer with a solid company this week. I’m so excited to push myself as a full stack engineer. Feel free to celebrate with me friend

Someone just @‘ed me in an email and I want to throw up. Outlook must be stopped

When the most jr person on the team is sad bc they’re losing their “best work friend” and it’s you 🥺 may I always be a safe space for the people coming up the ladder after me

The vibe is tidal.com/browse/track...

I’m so damn proud of myself

Shopped away my feelings, bought a new vacuum cleaner and for the first time ever, retail therapy actually worked. As someone who shares a home with two large, long haired dogs, this vacuum has literally changed my life