Backlash

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So I decided to touch grass. Weather is nice, foliage is colorful, Halloween decorations are plentiful. Did wonders for my mood

It is over www.furaffinity.net/journal/1144...

I don't want to have to prove anything I don't want my process scrutinized I don't want to be under a microscope I don't even want to be popular! I just want to create stuff!

I'm officially not amused by this anymore. The internet detectives are knocking at my door, and my anxiety is spiking. Why did this happen to me right now of all times?

Callout post to myself for being a shitty artist in 5th grade, because the grand poo-bah of art decrees I am a sham, a fraud, a fake. I do not deserve to walk upon the divine steps of this planet in the presence of such a deity because I chose to experiment and do away with the flaws that defiled me

Also, a thank you to all those sticking up for me www.furaffinity.net/journal/1144...

Alright, so I thought this was over once Kayla deleted their comment, but nope! They have tripled down and sent me another note.

Update

Argh! I'm so angry, and I want to turn it into something productive, but my hand is still fucked!

So I just got left this on my page, and I will say I've never been so insulted in my life. Obviously please don't harass them

There has to be SOMETHING productive I can do...

I've had it with not being able to use my PC. I'm investing in the parts I need, and I will find someway to fix it, even with only four fifths of a hand!

Had a follow up appointment today for my injury. It's healing well, and I don't require surgery. I'm still looking at a few weeks before my pinky is 100%, and at least another month before the plaster cast comes off.

I feel so useless and pathetic right now...

I've apparently been soft banned. I posted maybe twice?

I hate having to do this but I need money. My Ko-Fi is here. ko-fi.com/M4M4BD9J

www.furaffinity.net/journal/1143...

I'm in a lot of pain, but I'm going to try to sleep. I'll refund everyone tomorrow

Hurts to type which I can barely do now. Art is now off the table. I'll have to refund my last three commissions, then probably off myself because now my medical bills are way too high to pay

Back from the ER. 3 broken fingers on my right hand, along with 6 other broken bones, and a broken pinky on my left hand I'm fucked

Started taking things out on my desk, think I broke my hand...

And to top it off, the Pathfinder game I was so excited about is effectively canceled Just fuck everything

My PC broke, and I don't have the money to fix it, so I can't game at all cause this shitbox I'm using barely handles Discord

I'm terrified of talking to my usual friend groups because of all the bad habits I've fallen back into, I'm going to end up losing them for good

Everything in my life feels like it’s going to shit right now…

As I always seem to be rushing for Skunktember, I don't have anything finished, so have the start of Jareth's ref sheet

So one of my current college courses is delving deep into AI, and I thought I'd share this from my textbook, just so y'all can be educated too ;)

Another comm down! Just three more to do, and I can start making money again

Been seeing this going around, so... why not?

Well, still partially deaf, but my body doesn't feel like it's falling apart anymore Back to arting!

Waiting for a prescription to be filled, saw this, kinda want it…

Update: Still deaf

I'm so fucking pissed. These eardrops aren't doing shit. I'm never getting my hearing back

Welp, got another infection in my ear. When it rains it pours I guess. Not as severe as the throat though

Now I'm off the prednisone and the earth isn't shifting to the left, I'm gonna see if I can see someone to get my hearing sorted

My body feels like it has latency...

I'm just gonna say it. I don't know why, but low cut shoes REALLY fuckin do it for me...