Hayden F

Hayden F

@fourteentrees.net

hiii hello haiii hiiiii :3 she/they

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whenever I say im tired my parents are usually the first to say "did u stay up too late???" like yeah god forbid im tired. everything my fault around here smh

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either i have suffered a loss of creativity the likes of which has never been seen before on this planet or i need to be grasping onto music like its the only thing i have and i think it could be both

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Even with a vivid memory of what happened i still feel like an outsider. Sure it was bad but it could be worse. I should feel grateful actually that it was just what it was

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When i was with a certain group of friends it always felt like it was a competition. Like we were trying to see and prove who has it worse. Everything was invalid because X had this happen to them. Or Y had to deal with that. I have no clue why im trying to join them again despite how bad I felt

Even with a vivid memory of what happened i still feel like an outsider. Sure it was bad but it could be worse. I should feel grateful actually that it was just what it was

I dont have "typical" symptoms of most things and because of that. Nobody believes me. The guy covered it up so well he shook the county and state off him. I fucking hate people

I think im out of options in terms of places to vent to. Last time I did to my irl friends they exiled me, and I am NOT losing these ones, my other friends have their own problems, and I can't here without speaking in codes in case my parents find this account, lest I get sent away

me: "I feel perpetually tired and I can barely muster up the strength to go on-" the world: "FOCUS ON THE HAPPY OR YOURE A FUCKING FAILURE!!!!! DO YOU HEAR ME???"

I would rather dip my arm in hydrochloric acid while standing knee deep in lava all while water is slowly being dripped on my forehead at a rate of like 2 drops per minute than have to deal with CE5.7 again.