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Digging into the current Reacher episode... this one is intense!... Love it!

After a week at the beach... I finally was able to get down for sunrise. Heavy clouds off the coast, so the red bar is all that is of the Sun.

I am really starting to despise humans. I needed a supplement for health. Went to the site (wrong site ended up being a scam site) and tried to order. Order failed unsurprisingly... but all my credentials were stolen. I am glad I caught it early... but still. Scammers are scum.

Well. Fuck. Time has come to do the thing best for my physical and mental health. This job... while good... is not worth the increased blood pressure, the increased stress, and the overall burnout and depression. Resumes are being sent out, applications submitted. Current goal is to survive July

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Hooray. Now we are still at war with a country that wanted nothing to do with us... but. We have 2 weeks off... to let gas prices go even higher, have military strikes continue because Israel and the US won't give up and everything gets worse.

Having a crush on someone when you know that you are the wrong person for them is soul crushing

Wildly unenthusiastic for work of late. Dont get me wrong. I enjoy my job... but lately... focus has been a big issue. Many thoughts rattling around in my head and feels like no outlets. Quit fb... which is excellent... but still feeling the doom spiral. Going to dig into my pile of books tonight.

So. Cheeto has said that he will instigate military action against the country of Iran if the Iranian Government kills any civilians during the protests. But. Seems to be actively wanting US citizens to be killed in protests on the US? WTF?

Eye appt this morning gives further proof that I am increasing in age. Which is bullshit. I would like to know my options for opting out of all this bullshit, please.

Why does it feel like the attack on the National Guard in DC has all the hallmarks of a false flag operation? Perpetrator was Muslim, here through a green card program (or something similar), worked as a CIA-backed militia in Afghanistan...

Do you ever wonder how you are doing in this fucked up world? I have housing, vehicle, job... I have some outside activities and hobbies... but... am I doing OK?

Made the decision to deactivate fb for a bit. I find it stunning how often I have been picking up my phone in an attempt to feed that dopamine addiction.. and then putting it down since there is nothing to see. This will be hard, but worth it I think. May delete... may not. Who knows.

Been feeling low of late. Depressed... not quite. Empty. That is a better sense. I give to friends and work and family. I do not expect anything in return.. but would like some sort of... not recognition per se... but. Something. The sun shines on me when out and about, but I do not feel the warmth.

Looking out for myself i stead of my employer. Looking to my future instead of being stuck in the past. Trying to make forward movement, just cannot see the path. Scary stuff. But absolutely necessary.

I have been feeling fuzzy and out of sorts for a bit now. No real clue as to why... though I suspect stress is a likely player. No real outlet for release.. so.. I guess we shall see what we shall see...

3 guesses as to which dumbass managed to superglue themselves to themselves.. upside, I have acetone in the house, so all of good.

Feeling frustrated with myself. The meds I am on to help reduce weight are making me hungry. The meds I am on to increase energy are making me sleepy. The meds I am on to make my heart happy are doing almost the exact opposite. Something has to give. I hate feeling like this, trapped.

Finally coming out of the holiday funk I found myself in. Short short vague answer... blood family is not always good for you.

In the concept of 'new year new me' ... well... a lot is going to stay the same .... but I need and want to change some things. I want to be in a shape other than round. I want to be able to go up stairs without losing my breath. These things are doable. Just takes time. And effort. I got this.

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Trapped in purgatory. Physically for one reason, emotionally for another and different. Seriously hoping for these to be remedied sooner than later.

Seasonal depression is definitely a thing. Sorting through the wants vs the needs vs everything else.. hunting for balance. Tired of being lonely.

If you see this post, do it! pronouns: he/they/it/them height: 7' shoe: US M 15 4E zodiac: Virgo smoke: only when standing too close to fire tattoos: 6 with more on the way piercings: none fav drink: buttermilk(soft) Rum or White Russian (hard)

Went poking about for a photo for my profile (finally) and discovered unsurprisingly that I have none. There may be one or two in existence here and there, but not on my device apparently. Instead, have a gorgeous sunrise. Which, if you know me, makes some sense.

Good news! Got approved for the meds I desperately need to improve my health! Starting everything in the morning. So excited to get my health and my life back on track!

Tired. Mentally and physically. Not done by a Longshot, just very very tired. Also have a wicked headache.

Tired and worn out from a other great Frolicon experience. I do want to explore the con more but I also love volunteering as well.