Lilly3D 🇦🇺🔞

I reeallise now that bc I haven't been anywhere near as active on Bsky as I have Twitter, everyone on here hhas missed my complete and utter mental deterioration and breakdown thats been ongoing these past few weeks xd

Onee of the hardest tthings, I think, is realising your family is dysfunctional, abusive or emotionally manipulative. Having someone tell you tthat is aalwaays a hhatd pill tto swall ow wwheny ou ddont know any be t ter..

Just passed 1 month on hrt yipee

20 Sept

Lying in my den with the soft RGB strip lights, glow in the dark stars on the ceiling, numerous plushies and calm Z.A.T.O ost playing. Life may suck, but having a room you can call your own and being able to turn it into your own space is so nice...

20 Sept

...I JUST NEED PEOPLE TO SHARE IT WITH ( ｡ﾟДﾟ｡)

18 Sept

I need to get some goddamn rest but my sleep schedules all out of wack thxs to 1am department meetings and 5am management meetings... need someone to drug me and snuggle as I lose consciousness so I can actually get some good fuckn sleep

17 Sept

Nothing quite like waking up and realising today is one of 'those' days where everything sucks and you just feel completely empty the whole day.

17 Sept

Like I nearly broke my hand a few days ago from gripping it too tightly out of anxiety n stuff, I gotta take a break but at the same time, a break from what? Simply existing as a functional human being feels exhausting at the moment

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5 Sept

We're livee picarto.tv/Lilly3D/ Gonna be doing more animating for projects, so feel free to come on by and chat while listening to some music and my reportedly-pleasant voice.

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4 Sept

aand we're live! picarto.tv/Lilly3D/

3 Sept

My kinks have changed so much over the years lol. Thicc body types, sweat, pubes, rimming, armpits, smeg, etc are all stuff I was never doing in my art till about 2 years ago. Now I go out of my way to cover cock models in as much pubes, grease and grime as I can xdd

3 Sept

Replying to @lilly3d.bsky.social

I created special shapekeys controlled by drivers that detected the distance between the dick tips and the face to try and approximate the "denting" of the cheeks, but sadly those don't really show up well...

2 Sept

this damn GPU is gonna be the death of me if I don't fix my abysmal water intake. Rendering can push it into the 60s (~140 for Americans) and turn my poor room into a hotbox. It works nicely during winter because it can be freezing outside, but I usually have to work shirtless xd

1 Sept

Thinking about withered Bonnie armpit..

24 Aug

starting my HRT tonight, wish me luckk

9 Aug

originally put "horsebone 🐴🦴" in my bio because its a term used to describe Hirasawa fans (its a Japanese pun bc ofc it is) but the more I look at it in the context of a NSFW acc bio... yeah it'll prob have to go lol

9 Aug

Walltaker will be shutting down at some point, I'm heartbroken

28 July

Welp the publisher set unrealistic expectations and are essentially about to lay us all off after years of work and cut funding for totally-BS reasons :D Who needs to keep funding the singleplayer FPS game you approved when you can keep making safe, cheap friendslop amirite?

28 July

I have rarely felt so utterly humiliated in my life, so disrespected both as a collective team and as a professional artist in this industry.

17 July

Melbourne, I will be inside you soon

26 June

The universe is as infinitely beautiful as it is horrific, right? Makes me wonder why the unseen force just watches, yet who am I to know its reasons

26 June

I am only slightly psychotic. I see figures made only for me as they follow, and I hear the breathing down my neck when there is noone. I just don't say it because it makes me feel like an edgy anime protag

24 June

between waiting to see if our studio gets the green light and if a gallery accepts my submission, I'm just doing a lot of waiting. Lying in bed, disassociating and listening to the ZATO ost on repeat. I don't rly have the motivation to do any other work rn either even if I wanted

24 June

I guess a positive way to look at it is that I'm still depressed, but for different reasons now. I used to be depressed bc I thought I was worthless and deserved to be alone... now I'm depressed because I wish I wasn't alone and want to be with people.

24 June

I'm the type who has a lot of love and happiness to give, and can be the life of the party... but I have noone to give that love to, and no party to be at

New profile pic courtesy of @maxlewddraws.bsky.social Thank you so muchhh <3333

18 June

Why is the world so cruel to those i care about most. Im so tired

13 June

For anyone interested, I will be taking commissions at the moment! If you have something in mind, feel free to DM me and we can discuss it! (just make sure to check if the character(s) you want are on smutbase/SFMlab, as I don't port models) #r34 #nsfw #commisonsopen

12 June

Not particularly happy with how this turned out (was planning to make it an animation n all) but it is what it is. Plus I got sick midway through lol. Kit model by JojoMingles

5 June

Summer Games Fest is Geoff revealing a bunch of games that mostly look pretty good, and gamers or grifters just complaining every time that it looks woke or it isnt their dream game. Like wtf is Keighly supposed to do, he can only showcase what developers make.

5 June

Like yea I want HLX/HL3 as well but Geoff can only take what hes given, and he has taken feedback and cut down on things like ads in SGF and TGA. 95% of these games im not interested in, but i don't bitch about it or get angry lol, I'm just glad we still have events like this

3 June

✨Guess which girl just got her estrogen and t-blocker scripts✨

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2 June

annual reminder #pride

So yeag that backrooms movie was good

Imagine if animatronics had heat vents on their armpits and ass to help cool their CPUs and components. I mean how else would you get rid of the heat that'd be created over an *entire* day?? And if they did have vents, you'd want to hide them too.

And a member of maintenance would have to clean the moisture or gunk from them so the vents can still function and stop the animatronic from cooking itself, or it's plastic from becoming searing hot to the touch.