the witch mae (she/her)

the witch mae (she/her)

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she/her 26/yo trans woman in northwest England big lesbian system watercolour artist, experienced public speaker, tryna stay alive and whimsical despite the horrors 💜

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the witch mae (she/her)
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the rain is my friend. she has long frizzy grey-blue hair and a sleepy disposition. although sometimes she finds herself in a great passionate fury. usually though? very chill. people dont like her much though. but I do. its nice to see you, rain. you can run your fingers through my hair if you want

the witch mae (she/her)
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okay so fun interesting thing. seems the different mes have different songs stuck in our head depending on who's up front. turns out? mrs bones really likes kasane teto. who knew

the witch mae (she/her)
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aw man im really sad to be missing wrestling today. was not expecting pinfall to say they'd stop with the AI so didn't even consider I'd be going. the stopping of ai usage is excellent news but it's a great sadness to miss a sterling match just a couple bus rides away because of stupid chronic pain

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being disabled kind of fucking sucks sometimes I am just in hurt a lot today because of going to the Grindleford but there's nothing to be done to stop it and I just gotsta sit in my seat and not let em move so it hurts less for long. it's sit in and hurt a bits or go out and hurt lots for 2-5 days

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I know we are nowhere near well enough for it safely but I miss dating so bad dude being so mentally ill you have to consider the effects and risks of it on the people in your life is the responsibility thing to do but it sucks!!!!

the witch mae (she/her)
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any fellow plural folk have that thing where you get really anxious about answering messages and they build up and so one of your alters takes you to the middle of the woods and sits you down and says "only I know the way back. it's time to look at the notifications" like Saul Goodman in the desert

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it worked!! I answered my dms!! but I didn't know she could do that!!!! what the fuck!!!!!! I knew we were going somewhere but the witch was fronting the whole time we were actually going into the woods and we didn't go THAT far but I fucking!! can't believe she did that!! what the hell!!!

the witch mae (she/her)
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sometimes the experience of being trans in public sitting down eating something with your headphones on and someone just walks up to you and starts bending down and staring at you as one would at a hamster in a cage on the floor

the witch mae (she/her)
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birdbrain is one of those songs that I think just has cocaine in it or something. it's so perfectly produced to just have little bits of it that catch in your brain like cerebral velcrow that drags its claws through your neurons and leaves little intents in the shape of the "ca-caw" when teto blinks

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the thing about cats is that sometimes they don't want to be touched even by people they like and it makes me feel like it's okay that I feel like that a lot of the time too. sometimes I wanna just slowblink at people from afar. just hide in a warm corner and listen to the rain.

the witch mae (she/her)
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ok I knew she would but shy bethany REALLY likes this pallas' cat plushie. I forget that one of the reasons she exists is because I spent a lot of my teenage life fearing and repressing engagement with cuteness. and she especially likes pallas' cats because they look like they don't wanna be touched

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I am gonna be borderline mummified tomorrow. on my way home now and ouuhhhh fuuuuck I have overdone itttt I am gonna DIIEEEE tomorrow my knees are gonna be locked so hard the mythbusters will do an episode about means to get me out of bed and ALL of them will be busted

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just had a really awesome experience where 2 really cool looking goth women in public were like nervously talking at each other and looking at me but in like a "wow so cool" way so when I went past I super chill like said "cool style" and they screamed. gosh I have missed feeling cool like that lmao

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god. I'm so glad I got out of that room. was so scared I'd miss the beauty of this year's autumn to being in too much pain. but the yellows and oranges and falling leaves contrasting the bleakest Manchester grey you could find is a really gorgeous contrast and I'm enjoying it a lot. it's a nice grey

the witch mae (she/her)
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I am in too much pain to have this much cabin fever. oh well time for an IKEA trip for a scenery change lmao nice long october tram ride. hot food. maybe I'll get a shark? not sure. dry herb vape and headphones. maybe the witch will wanna have a lil strut around too so I'll bring her hat.

the witch mae (she/her)
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it's really disturbing as a trans woman who is finding herself growing more and more disabled to know that if I ever need urgent medical help my transness could mean they just ignore me!! and the same goes for like.. most of the people I know!!! theres this horrible sense of uncertain impending loss

the witch mae (she/her)
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I have this horrible thing wrong with me that means when I see that I have messages I see the notifications on my phone instead of saying "yay my friends want to talk to me" I just get SO scared. I hate this thing wrong with me and I do not know why it is here. really could use a therapist or somthn

the witch mae (she/her)
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the thing is if I did get a therapist I would probably see the notification and get SO scared and not reply for three days and by that point my time will have been up and I will need to join the back of the waiting list again

the witch mae (she/her)
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thinking of putting all of my body pain into one limb and then chopping it off and burning it so I can get back to leaving the house more than for emergency food trips every couple days and "I am going to go insane if I do not leave these immediate surroundings" trips every two weeks or so

the witch mae (she/her)
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I feel sooooooo broken!! my brain is five people and my body hurts forever and I cant talk to anyone or let anyone touch me because I keep leaving it too long between conversations with strangers and I forget what interaction is supposed to be like and everythings uncertain and that gives flashbacks

the witch mae (she/her)
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this is the next logical step of trans medical segregation now the gender clinics are functionally inaccessible. we're already denied the same hormones your mum gets at 45 for vague transgender reasons. "no, for vague transgender reasons" has been said for YEARS already. its just NHS-wide policy now

Keyne@keyne-unable.bsky.social

So many people buried their heads in the sand this week saying that NHS segregation of trans people was "for their safety". But even internal NHS assessments say it will cause direct harm. Sex is not binary and trans people need respectful care based on actual physiology, not anti-trans slogans.

theguardian.comNew NHS England policy for trans people could have ‘a number of adverse impacts’, report findsExclusive: rules on same-sex wards could lead to delays in care, discrimination and animosity between groups, finds internal assessment
the witch mae (she/her)
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cis people fuck around and trans people find out. how do we go about bringing that finding out back to them. how do we most efficiently spit trans blood into cis eyes. I refuse to let us be the only ones screaming