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i think i actually do understand what the women I'm related to see in men. what i do not understand is how they are not also into girls

to the hypothetical right kind of guy i'm not sure actually exists, i'd be the most awesome girlfriend in the world. yeah man, you can build your own rc plane. i'll come watch you play with your toys. yeah man, show me your improvements to your factory. yeah man, i'll let you tech deck on my boobs.

it's incredibly rare for me to get attached to fictional characters that aren't girls. so it's a bit silly that i feel alien when i do. but i guess that's to be expected when you're someone who is surrounded by lesbians and has yet to meet a man irl that didn't disappoint you

okay nevermind. solved it the way i always do: reading fanfiction until i know how i feel and am fine with it

i don't think i ever processed yumi's centipede tattoos when i played through the game but now i have. i'm Very Normal

staring at the legal name we picked out together: "that's not my name"

i don't like talking. i feel cold and uncaring. i need to be alone. but i like teaching people. i like drawing art for people. i like learning new things. i like seeing what others make. i like being sent things that reminded them of me. i admire certain people, and i become curious about them.

i don't know what i'm looking for. I'm not sure it's even possible

i can't empathize with people who stop masking because they "want to live". i want to live too. maybe you're willing to gamble on a single-digit chance that you get long covid the 1st time. okay, fine. but consider what it would actually be like to be unable to sit up in bed for weeks.

unable to work, shower, drive, go to the grocery store, garden, draw, hold a book, write, clean, do laundry, go for a walk, play video games, see anyone. now consider what it would feel like to see someone you love and live with get sick, too, and know that you were the one who exposed them.

ohhh fuck. i'm about to become really normal about ruri rocks

i'm gonna lose my mind

there's no right or wrong way to be plural. just in case you also feel like you're bad at it.

anyone can undergo drastic change in selves, for better or worse, at any age. anyone can benefit from things that foster self-communication, etc. if you think differences matter in the long run, i bet your answer will change in 10 years, and i'd love to chat with you about plural history.

sis: "you didn't know about [the practice of making centipedes duel to the death and then making a poison out of the last one alive]? I've got that in a book!" me: what sis: