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With all the attention Brazil is getting for their election, I hope people aren’t missing this unfathomable victory in Serbia. apnews.com/article/serb...

One year ago vs Today. I don’t know anything about his past but today he’s a big snuggly biscuit boy.

Controversial grid that instantly kills the viewer.

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Went on a walk on Labor Day. One of the guys in my neighborhood was out working in his yard with his dog, whom I've met before on walks. It started barking at me, but he reassured me it was friendly. Within seconds it was perched on the fence with its jaw wrapped around my arm.

The owner was in total shock, but for some reason I was incredibly calm and forgiving about it. I kept having to assure him that it was totally fine but I could tell he wasn't having it. Teeth didn't break the skin directly but they dented very deep and scraped my arm enough to bleed a little.

Since my last outburst, I’ve been logging my emotional state three times a day (How We Feel app) and I’m interested in seeing what it’ll look like a year from now. It’s early but there’s some patterns emerging.

Red and yellow are high energy good/bad, blue and green are low energy good/bad. Not necessarily angry/happy/sad.

Turns out it’s really hard to talk about your feelings when nobody wants to talk about your feelings.

Feeling a bit more optimistic now. I would like to spend more time in therapy before I return to group chatting, but I don’t feel like I have to hide away anymore.

I think maybe in my quest to be less cynical, I forgot that I still need an outlet for my anger. I don't wanna burden anyone with that but I guess that's what you pay a therapist for. Better than having a moment in public.

This combined with my attention-seeking behavior (which is a wholly separate issue I won't get into) seems to be what's causing me to break. So if I'm going to return, I have to do two things: Seek help for the unmentionable issues. Find and attend an anger management program.

I think maybe in my quest to be less cynical, I forgot that I still need an outlet for my anger. I don't wanna burden anyone with that but I guess that's what you pay a therapist for. Better than having a moment in public.