Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻

@millennialmh.bsky.social

European 🇪🇺 | Chats mental & chronic illness 🥄 BPD, suicide survivor ; Fibromyalgia 💜 CFS💙 | Neurodivergent🌈 Dyspraxic Dyscalculia, Rejection Sensitive (RSD)| trying to recover from trauma🌱 rebuilding life after loss | She/Her🏳️‍🌈| fiancé💍 📍UK (unfortunately)

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Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

Hiii🤍 My first post here so I’m going to #introduction myself & hopefully find my twitter moots too! I talk about my daily life experiences w mental + chronic illnesses: depression, anxiety, BPD/EUPD, fibromyalgia, joint hypermobility, chronic fatigue, dyspraxia, dyscalculia, dyslexia + IBS

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

getting my hair done today & my nails done for the first time since moving in years tomorrow 🥹✨ Just need to sort where I get my brows done this week. I think I know a place but let’s hope they take new people on 🥹🙏🏻 Then I can at least feel a bit better about myself!🥹🥰

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

I have created a problem 😩🫠 I rescued him don’t worry but yeahhhhh I was dumb leaving something there I shouldn’t. Never been a problem till now 😫 & yes I have a very northern UK accent cos yes, I’m not American whatsoever (despite a lot of American followers I suppose)

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

I’m on a bit of a Twitter detox as I was wasting all day for a few days on it recently. So I’ve now got OneSec installed and basically blocked it a bit too well where I actually can barely use it lmao So it’s something I suppose & encourages me here more where I don’t tend to stay long & just post

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

Sadly it didn’t work out due to my past. Unfortunately my previous training provider did not recommend me so I am forced to resign. So I’ve been a bit low & it’s all been a shock & I’ve had to move back home. It’s been a bit over month since. So trying to unpack & rethink everything. Be kind🥹

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IM SUPER HAPPY RN! It worked out 🥹🎉 Honestly feel like I can breathe and relax for the first time in a longgg time Time to finally live instead of survive soon! I know I can do this and nothing gonna stop me 🥹🥺

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

My life is going to completely change come September and I’m here for it ✨ Can’t wait to share it here publicly at some point But that’s gonna be near the end of it all as I can’t guarantee I’m not being stalked still here But all positive & exiting FINALLY happening 4 me 🥹

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻@millennialmh.bsky.social

IM SUPER HAPPY RN! It worked out 🥹🎉 Honestly feel like I can breathe and relax for the first time in a longgg time Time to finally live instead of survive soon! I know I can do this and nothing gonna stop me 🥹🥺

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

IM SUPER HAPPY RN! It worked out 🥹🎉 Honestly feel like I can breathe and relax for the first time in a longgg time Time to finally live instead of survive soon! I know I can do this and nothing gonna stop me 🥹🥺

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻@millennialmh.bsky.social

Tomorrow I might/hopefully find out if everything changes (positively) or not Please fates & universe I’m ready 🥹🙏🏻✨🤞🏻 I know I can do this 🥺🍀💫

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

Tomorrow I might/hopefully find out if everything changes (positively) or not Please fates & universe I’m ready 🥹🙏🏻✨🤞🏻 I know I can do this 🥺🍀💫

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻@millennialmh.bsky.social

Kinda scared about potentially hearing news tomorrow cos I’ll either be super happy and excited OR super depressed and disappointed Like im scared how I’ll cope if it doesn’t work out So let’s hope it does and then nicer problems to deal with 🥹🙏🏻🍀🤞🏻☺️🧧✨

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

Kinda scared about potentially hearing news tomorrow cos I’ll either be super happy and excited OR super depressed and disappointed Like im scared how I’ll cope if it doesn’t work out So let’s hope it does and then nicer problems to deal with 🥹🙏🏻🍀🤞🏻☺️🧧✨

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Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
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Getting my hair done later today and I cannot wait as my roots are ridiculous & I’ve been feeling unlovable cos it doesn’t look great Hoping I can finally get that last band of red out/brassy-ness out Thinking I want a fringe as I’m bored too So let’s see. I need this rn🥹

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@millennialmh.bsky.social

Feeling a bit low for no real reason today. Had a couple of knock backs from when I’ve asked for references for my portfolio for my training. I appreciate it’s a while ago but I need to evidence many years of skills. Suppose feel rejected🥲 don’t have many ppl 2 ask either😢

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I’m sorry it was many years ago, I can’t help that I haven’t worked in that many places and only some of my roles are directly relevant unlike my more current ones when I’ve had a break from my career Guess it’s rejection sensitive dysphoria & I’m worried how I’ll complete it

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@millennialmh.bsky.social

Does anyone else believe in this probably paranoid theory that just cos it’s *you* saying something - it isn’t liked Yet if someone else more likeable/popular/admired etc said *exactly the same thing* it would instantly be recognised/shared/praised?

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@millennialmh.bsky.social

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Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

Had a couple of rejections already this week Feeling the Monday blues HARD today I already upped my antidepressants Short of quitting employment there’s not much can be done & nhs psychiatrist again refused to see me lmao cos talking therapies is the cure all lmao 🥲😭

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@millennialmh.bsky.social

Told my therapist about my new job & she said it is like work used to be 10-15 years+ ago! Also when I said I needed some leave in August & manager pulled her face about it & basically said ‘we need it for childcare’ I shouldn’t be treated differently for not having kids!!

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

Soooo yeahhhh the earlier I can get out the better I’m hoping once I have a job secured I’m just going to take sick leave (reference etc) & have a break cos what can they do 🤷🏻‍♀️ also I will be able to see their ref in my employee file cos I’m also now HR 😂 It’s been weird AF

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

Had the money to see my private psychiatrist tonight and he’s going to increase my lamotrigine & my antidepressants (since GP are a nightmare about it and can’t get appointments!) It was nerve wracking meeting someone new but he was good really Can hopefully decompress now🥹🙏

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@millennialmh.bsky.social

Also I can have my last 2 tablets as I’ve been rationing it out over the last few days as wasn’t allowed anymore until I had a review At least this one was cheaper at 15 mins (I wasn’t allowed those w the last psych) He’s gonna write 2 my GP re med increases too 🙏

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

I have either got to the level of trauma OR anti socialism that forced 30 mins lunch break WITH all work colleagues for ‘mental health’ event has meant I decided to just book that whole day off That 30 mins lunch break of a 7.5hr day is the only bloody break I get from evey1 FFS🤦‍♀️

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

My legal break should be taken how I wish not railroaded into sitting outside where there will be music blaring & people everywhere to have an absolutely useless twee ‘mental health’ break companies have absolutely 0 awareness of disabled colleagues it’s insane yet fake events

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@millennialmh.bsky.social

Also the event itself is much longer yet ofc we are only allowed 30 mins break maximum in a day. Also I don’t like the uncertainty of whether I can eat or not & how the weather will be outside never mind how my pain & fatigue levels would be & my hayfever & my mood regulation😭

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

Not me job searching again (for an interim job) on top of my usual getting my career back jobs 😂🙈 Honestly I just refuse to sta somewhere that isn’t accommodating & dead end stg employers just say they are disability friendly but they just aren’t in reality it’s just a badge!!! Hybrid my ass liars

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

Timeline cleanse of my fiance *for the first time* ever painting any room of his/his home an actual colour (not white or cream) The last one we were in a bit of a mood spiral panicking thinking it was a bit too blue 😂 I actually got him to do something uncertain & new tbf!

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

In the end we think the colour has grown on us lol And he finally was able to put the wardrobe in on the other side of the room (we front it as there was a smell & the wall & boards of wardrobe needed cleaning & airing) But the whole room in his house now feels more ours lol

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

I think I’m struggling atm more than I realise & everyone else just doesn’t get how upsetting it is to me 😭 Like everything just gets to me so much and like I can’t help it. I try to not react but it’s hard man #RSD

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻@millennialmh.bsky.social

Getting rejection sensitive dysphoria (RSD) from local nail salon cos no1 is taking on new clients & last 1 made it so difficult to make an appointment it felt like she didn’t want to take me on as a new client😭 what do u mean you booked me in then someone else took the slot??

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

Getting rejection sensitive dysphoria (RSD) from local nail salon cos no1 is taking on new clients & last 1 made it so difficult to make an appointment it felt like she didn’t want to take me on as a new client😭 what do u mean you booked me in then someone else took the slot??

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

I hate BPD, depression, anxiety & neurodivergence cos it is just hell trying to navigate interpersonal relationships with intense emotions and my poor reading of people’s actions actually wanna cry about it cos some bitch just cba fitting me in for more money?? Ffs she don’t care

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

Anywayyyyy I couldn’t vote as there wasn’t an election in my area so at least I didn’t have the extra stress of making it there after work. I guess time will tell but I’m sure some will be gutted farage isn’t pm tomorrow 😂 2029 is really gonna be a fitting end to 💩2020s!!!

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

It’s always election times thy I’m reminded how much my extended family & immediate family are all right wing cunts & I dare to share anything on fb they always comment & im just alone in my own caring about others & not wealthy billionaire crazy lefty vacuum ig 🤷🏻‍♀️

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

The uk (& Europe are slightly ahead) is on an eerily similar trajectory to the US. can see my relatives & people later on moaning & regretting voting reform when they do exactly same sort of shit trump & the republicans do. But ppl won’t realise until it happens & too late🤷🏻‍♀️

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@millennialmh.bsky.social

But they have to get in for people to wake up & realise good thing is greens are growing cos actually (at least rn) showing something different and not more centrism I just hope they will be different although the system & establishment will do everything to stop them being so unfortunately

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@millennialmh.bsky.social

I forgot when it comes to my family I’m not allowed a political opinion without them commenting on it or trying to make me feel uncomfortable I’m allowed a differing opinion It’s called democracy I am 33 years old, I’m postgrad educated, I know my own mind thank you!

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻@millennialmh.bsky.social

It’s depressing that when I share information about being wary on voting reform ofc members of my own fucking family criticise it It does support that me stepping away from them was the right decision as ofc all being boomers they are totally out of touch w other generations 😩

Mentally Millennial🦋💅🏻
@millennialmh.bsky.social

lived in a country where women did not have rights & have more than they did in 2005 @ least My fiancé is a dreaded immigrant who is now a naturalised citizen (no thanks 2 people u wanna vote in) also worked in NHS & that’s my future career So no I don’t & wont vote reform!!🖕🏻