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@minusuan.bsky.social

Sad and dumb and horny. Here to get dopamine and yell at the void. 19

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Man why is it that 'having vision' always consists in being a corporate maniac and a hateful asshole that will weaponize the existence and fights of minorities as a threat to their empires?? I'm sorry but i would rather not trying to see too far

In that context, seeing too far sounds to me like forcing some ideal condition to have infinite growth in our finite space. Yeah ok, i am blind because i don't want cancer i guess.

Far right still obsessed with Petro, now they're bullshitting about his sexual life, but little do they know i would be willing to take him

Yk i kinda like being proven wrong, so i now really wish Cepeda had also held that debate, as unserious as it would've gone (I believed not having it was a means of self-care back then because abelardo is an unserious reactionary dipshit)

I will always appreciate opinionated creators, not the ones that just benefit from troll or lolcow ass behavior, but actual honest people that find more value in being honest to themselves rather than just keeping an audience

Overheard landlord's husband transgender panic reels. I guess 'patria milagro' is already taking action about 'woke' and 'cultural battle'

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My virgin ass has been mostly hurt by men now that i think about it. Although not as a close friendship or anything, rather parasocial bs, at least it's not been the most painful experiences i guess.

Gotta clarify i am currently pissed at a bunch of bureaucracy bullshit like the inability to change my steam account name or my kde machine name with no weird risks

And names sometimes just become another hassle. If i just go with any bs i will owe explanations to others, if i try to change it, nuh uh i cant, if i get rid of them, i get rid of a lot of stuff i got under them. Is it greedy to just want more anonimity and good will?

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I suck at something as basic as naming. I be talking about how those are a display of basic human dignity and respect and proceed to forget virtually every single person's name i've talked to, not to mention i feel like i'm not using *all* my agency to come up with anything for myself,

It's a matter of empathy, sure, but Palestine also concerns us all because we could be next. Yeah that sounds like empathy, but not from the emotional appeal, but the safety issues. The next spionage crisis will too be funded by israel.

Do not let pegasus nor honduras gate go unadressed, hell, address your national safety and sovereignty concerns. It's just as dangerous if they can profile anyone as if they can bomb them.

I'll still have my prayers for the downfall of these empires, and our freedom, all around the world, from the most documented atrocities to the ones with little to no coverage.

I still condemn colonization and genocide. Don't give a fuck if i'm using the germanic or romanic language they forced on us, don't give a fuck if my communication means are funded by them.

Only thing that's changing is that it's easier to document when powerful people do horrible things, but they can still get away with it

Uh, that memorial day... I think we would be better off as the 'savages' colonization sympathizers claim we would have been if europeans hadn't come to fuck us all over centuries ago...

The level of hatred i'm developing towards america is crazy. Get the fuck out of our land. I refuse to believe their nationalist evangelist fascism reasonates with the common religious experience around here.

It is also kinda hard to have my own experience if i don't feel seen by others, as scary as it is. I can feel like a cute girl with my sideburns and scarf and button shirt and jean pants, but i don't even know how anyone else would validate the feeling.

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I need to figure out who in hell i am first to confidently exist around others. I don't know how, and the dread that i will end up hurting somebody with my lack of self knowledge constantly haunts me...

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Best i can do is little acts of service, they don't explicitly validate whatever i'm thinking, but to know i really helped somebody in whatever task they're dealing with is very reassuring, and maybe if i get enough credit i can actually be vulnerable around this.

Not honest tho, since i don't yet understand myself and there's not a lot of learning i can do by putting myself aside. Even then, i think i still suck at a lot of things, so the reassurance doesn't happen every time.

It is also kinda hard to have my own experience if i don't feel seen by others, as scary as it is. I can feel like a cute girl with my sideburns and scarf and button shirt and jean pants, but i don't even know how anyone else would validate the feeling.

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I need to figure out who in hell i am first to confidently exist around others. I don't know how, and the dread that i will end up hurting somebody with my lack of self knowledge constantly haunts me...

Only context in which that sounds natural is in very intimal acts that require industrial amounts of trust, however, putting thought into it, it sounds fucked up to want a partner to fuck and pamper and praise me whenever i feel suicidal and crave the dopamine.

I suck at something as basic as naming. I be talking about how those are a display of basic human dignity and respect and proceed to forget virtually every single person's name i've talked to, not to mention i feel like i'm not using *all* my agency to come up with anything for myself,

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I've seen plenty of queer people around me in real life, yet i'm not even sure if i can be myself around them, at best they know i might like men, but it's safer to guess they see me as a regular cis boy.

I need to figure out who in hell i am first to confidently exist around others. I don't know how, and the dread that i will end up hurting somebody with my lack of self knowledge constantly haunts me...

I suck at something as basic as naming. I be talking about how those are a display of basic human dignity and respect and proceed to forget virtually every single person's name i've talked to, not to mention i feel like i'm not using *all* my agency to come up with anything for myself,

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and the same with November, the unholy part just for the sake of username avialability and a bit of contrast with December Holiday Deltarune, except i don't think i relate to Dess nor Azzy at all...

I suck at something as basic as naming. I be talking about how those are a display of basic human dignity and respect and proceed to forget virtually every single person's name i've talked to, not to mention i feel like i'm not using *all* my agency to come up with anything for myself,

Instead just connecting dots from what others have said that resonated in my head. "uan" came from fucking Juan; Nova started as a nickname a former friend picked for me and i think they currently hate me; then i connected the dots, "Nova (me) ‹ Casper & Nova (allegories) ‹ Betty Grof (relatable)";

My virgin ass has been mostly hurt by men now that i think about it. Although not as a close friendship or anything, rather parasocial bs, at least it's not been the most painful experiences i guess.

i want to help and service others, and biggest paymwnt would just be affection, making me feel mildly loved... Even then i'm scared it would be optional because of course i easily get attached

i feel like in order to be able to call myself a demon i need to be constantly malicious, and uhh, i guess i've been more sarcastic and passive aggresive lately, but that's not enough