Manic Pixie Librarian

The Great Pumpkin Tasting 🪣 List: Pumpkin Spice Latte - Dunkin Pumpkin Spice Latte - Starbucks* Pumpkin Spice Boba Pumpkin Spice Donuts (Entemann’s) Pumpkin Spice Loaf (Kroger) Pumpkin Spice Gluten Free Muffins (Kroger) Pumpkin Seeds Pumpkin Concrete Mixer (Culver’s) *had a gift card don’t @ me

Wore my glasses for two weeks and am now acutely aware of how bad my optometrist fucked up my last prescription. These contacts are dog shit.

Every muscle in my body feels tense and I have cried so much today. Tomorrow is my PET scan, and after the last one, I am terrified.

Okay, Kiddo’s school gets the inflatable day/field day. No villain arc this time.

I am not usually upset about celebrity deaths, especially when they’ve lived a long life, but Walter Koenig dying sits at the intersection of too many things for me and I think I will be sad for a while.

Managed to sit through my one meeting of the day before any medication and in honor of surviving I’m gonna do nothing until that shit kicks in (about 20 minutes). Still feel congested but no creeping temperature today so far.

Feel a bit like my illnesses have taken my entire personality away. Love that for me…

Oh, good. Someone noticed and now we’re $15 away. I will cover that if I have to (but there are people in the PTO with more money than me who should do it instead.)

If my kiddo and her school miss their inflatable fun day by $205 it will be the start of my villain arc but my family has already donated a collective $300.

Y’all send good vibes my way I don’t end up in the hospital on my anniversary ffs. I’m tired of my body ruining everything.

The serving size on this pie is weird. 1/6th? Who cuts a pie into sixths? Now I have to do calorie math.

I think I need an SSRI but my psychiatrist is hesitant because of all the possible interactions with the chemo, etc.

The number of people rushing to say how much they hate Cheesecake Factory is baffling me. You can acknowledge that it’s not fine dining without your phony elitism. Also the best waiter I have EVER had was at a Cheesecake Factory in Virginia Beach in 2012. I hope that guy is doing amazing now.

The earth has shifted just enough that the sun is no longer painful, but merely annoying at sunset. Something about the angle through the glass, I guess?

It’s going to be 74 degrees on Halloween according to current projections. I might be able to hand out candy this year! (Last year it was too cold with my neuropathy. Some years, we’ve even had snow/sleet. The first year we were characters from Frozen so we laughed it off.)

Stomach seems determined to ruin my day today, too. What did I do to it? No one knows. This was easier to deal with yesterday when I was already exhausted. But now I feel fine otherwise and so it’s preventing me from doing anything!

HOLY SHIT MY KID MADE HONOR ROLL I DONT EVEN KNOW IF SHE KNOWS WHAT HONOR ROLL IS 😭 She’s struggled so hard in school until last year so we just try to help and be encouraging but don’t talk about academic honors because we don’t want to pressure her. Also one of her A’s was in reading!

Email was an accident (their system didn’t filter recipients correctly) but then my stomach decided it hates me so I’m pretty much still in menty b range.

Oh and then HR decided to send a panic inducing email about my insurance. I am going to have a menty b.

It’s going to take me all weekend to recover from my event today and it was such a waste of time. Fuck I hate this.

Curious to see what happens with the crowd after lunch. I’m assuming they’ll disappear. Even though the info fair runs until 2. Because.. reasons.

This event is boring and a waste of my time.

Power is back to the event building. No fog delay whether there should be or not. I have a long day ahead. I will probably cry at least once.

I’m in a severely bitchy mood and I also can’t sleep AND the whole house is asleep, including the cats. I have an event tomorrow at 9:30. Fog is rolling in, so kiddo might have a school delay. If ever I needed a good night’s sleep it would be tonight but it already seems unlikely.

The power is out in the building my event is supposed to be in tomorrow… just to fuck with me.

Working on my lecture after hours a bit because I don’t expect to get anything done tomorrow before or after my event and I would like to catch up a bit in case I get sick or something.

Thank you all for sticking with the voting!!! Onyx is now 22nd!!! You all are the BEST!!!! We love you!!!

The mornings are only going to get darker as the sun rise gets later. I worry about visibility for the students that bike to school with me. We have yellow high vis jackets, but I think some clip on lights would also help keep us safe. If anyone is willing to donate www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/...

🎵Blinded by the light…🎵 because today I bought myself a wheelchair cushion instead of curtains. Having a really hard time spending any money on myself right now with my PET scan coming up.

Have not started Module 3 but it is something I teach in my other class so upgrading those lecture materials should be easy. Right now though I have an email to write on behalf of a committee, and then a well deserved break 😮‍💨

Just got a call to my office from… someone? I couldn’t understand the message. And I don’t like the idea of calling back if they couldn’t speak clearly enough for the message. Plus I’m not in my office, anyway… #dilemma

Was going to buy horrendously expensive matching NFL tumblers for my mom and her partner to support my daughter in Girl Scouts but they don’t even have all the teams. Expensive candy and magazines it is then, I guess. I hate Fall Product sales. Too much competition from school fundraisers.

On the bright side I think I’ve done more work today than I managed all of yesterday. I just wish I could focus better on this very important project with a deadline!

Woke up to everything hurting, so you know today is going to be a great day. If I can’t control the muscles, I don’t think they should be able to hurt, damn it.

It is time for the worst part of my day, where it is too hot for blankets but the SUN IS TRYING TO BLIND ME. Soon though, it will sink behind the trees.

I was not the only one who fucked up that meeting so I expect it to be rescheduled.

Never mind my calendar fucked up and I missed the meeting. Oh well.

I really want a nap but I’m logging in to a meeting instead 😞 I also want my authorized extra dose of anxiety meds but these stupid things cut so bad that I’m afraid I’ll run out from them disintegrating (I’m supposed to take a half pill.)

I think I might legitimately have my first real hyperfixation with a food item. This is week three of me eating fattoush for multiple meals.

I deeply want to run my mouth about whether universities have a duty to protect but I also am not ready to be forced out of work onto disability. 😔

Wow an email 45 minutes after the start of the work day about the hazardous situation is not a good look.

My little kitty 🐈‍⬛ who has been avoiding me since my hospitalization in March 2025 (yes 2025) walked right up to me and mrrped for attention even though there was another person in the room! Of course she got pets. 😭😭😭

I think the cat just puked. I hope it’s just a few fucking coincidence. 🤦🏻‍♀️

Forgot to tell Kiddo about her school’s skate night tonight but she’s sick so she can’t go anyway so I guess I’m off the hook 😮‍💨

Just tried raspberry ramune for the first time and it tastes like raspberry jam but carbonated. I’ll take a whole case, please.

All fixed. No one updated me on the plan because no one thought I would care. I sobbed. Spouse normally picks up kiddo’s bestie from school with kiddo. Because kiddo didn’t go to school today I was worried bestie would get left at school. But alternative arrangements were made. 😮‍💨😭

Very anxious about something that should have a resolution soon (next 20 minutes) but I can't do anything right now and I hate it.

Safely at the hospital for my surgery. I’m achy everywhere from the weather. Spouse and kiddo are off to the pediatrician. I’m wondering if I’m going to make it to my 1 pm meeting. Probably not.

Because life isn’t stressful enough, I have surgery in 1 hour and my kid is sick and there’s no one to watch her while taking me to the surgery.