Stone Top Ramen

13 Feb

COOP I JUST GOT WORD FROM WASHINGTON. THEY SAID THE INESCAPABLE HOLD OF GRIEF NEVER SOFTENS IT'S GRIP ON THE HEART. YOU AND SHERIFF TRUMAN HAD BETTER GET SEARCHING FOR A LOVE THAT LETS YOU MOVE ON, LEST WE SEE JUST HOW TIGHT IT WILL SQUEEZE.

and no matter what i still dont weaponize that information. have u seen me make a god honest call out for anyone? ever?

straight up eatin popcorn while everyone eats each other alive

people act like me not going out means i dont know what's going on. everything makes its way to me, it always has. i dont even keep tabs on people its like a pop up window the way i get a DM or a phone call asking if ive heard about recent such and such

@earthbound-txt.bsky.social

ohhh it's everyone

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Earthbound.txt

Thanks a lot.

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@nonblnary.bsky.social

what were the words i meant to say before you left

i rly was just surrounded by people who did not love or value me for a very long time and i hopped to any island of friends that sounded better, not realizing i was subconsciously looking for the next plane out of there too

i actually had a moment earlier this year where i looked at myself in the bathroom mirror and said "you're older than you thought you'd be and older than you've ever been. now what?"

now is now! now im alive and i have shit to do

promise you im not having a come to jesus moment

but im abt to close the cover on 30 in a few months and i now have an entire decade to reflect on and i need to be able to look at the reflection without wincing

it's weird to feel, at this point, that i really only miss 2 or 3 of them bc i had more of an expectation of our respective friendships but. what to do?

cutting back on vices, turns out, it's great for making breathing room right? if ur in a vice grip you'd want it to relax a bit to take in some more air.

my mother's wisdom of keeping a small circle is louder than ever. 8 people dropping you at once is a heavy blow but im so light now it's like it barely touched me

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it's alright:)

happy to say that escaping some of the more awful and encroaching periods of my life has made me less inclined to smoke weed

not claiming full sobriety or anything like that bc i dont intend to be so strict as to (inevitably) shame myself for dipping back in in moments of weakness or stress. im allowed this.

moreso happy to share where im at. job good, love good, money...alright. and im even down ~20lbs from January its alright

happy to say that escaping some of the more awful and encroaching periods of my life has made me less inclined to smoke weed

we're all daily smokers bc we cant cope but im learning to cope better than i ever have and im gonna have to rediscover my connection and relationship to my mom and sister respectively in order to feel fulfilled around them while sober

addiction was everywhere in my life, a lot of it in my family and we're prone to addiction. physically addictive properties of weed vs emotional or mental dependence is honestly whatever to me bc it doesn't matter if i dont experience withdrawal from it im compelled to keep using it like a necessity

happy to say that escaping some of the more awful and encroaching periods of my life has made me less inclined to smoke weed

being high wasnt that much fun anymore when it was 6+ hours of my day accepting i shouldnt or cant execute a task because im high. driving, phone calls, chores, work.

there's a weird want to stay "chronic" as my mom puts it, tho, she's smoking 6-8 doobie time slots a day, also shared but still. it feels strangely like kinship woth her and my sister

happy to say that escaping some of the more awful and encroaching periods of my life has made me less inclined to smoke weed

i am now chiseled down to 1.5 doobies per day on average and almost all of them are shared. ! another record !

i came to love weed because i actually just like smoking. i like the smoke i like the motions i like the feeling if taking in something so ethereal feeling. and weed wont kill me as fast as cigarettes will but cigarettes are another thread for another day.

happy to say that escaping some of the more awful and encroaching periods of my life has made me less inclined to smoke weed

im actually about to finish this bag in the next 2 days and i got it on the 21st almost two weeks for 1 oz is admittedly a record for me considering i was buying an oz every 5-8 days for a few years there

a lot of money down the pipe yk?

happy to say that escaping some of the more awful and encroaching periods of my life has made me less inclined to smoke weed

"but ness-!" you say "you're the weed guy! you always have it, smoke it, bring it!" smiles warmly and puts my hand on your shoulder im 30 years old do not consolidate my personality to drug use

@earthbound-txt.bsky.social

the inception of that being 'who i am' from either A) my frequency of use to Cope or B) what people have used/wanted me for in the past is so blended together they're mouths are indistinguishable from the kiss

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Earthbound.txt

21 Sept

Good luck, ok?

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@earthbound-txt.bsky.social

21 Sept

Be careful!