norma!~ (@ntauthority.me)

oh. the discord application json doesn't mention any exe names for it, so you'd have to have it be detected from console presence detection or discord's steam specific code path such a shame that i can't engage with ea's ad for ea's ea sports fc on ea's ea app

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

ig nobody plays this on pc but im not buying ea sports fc 27 just to get a $4 discount on discord iaps sobbbb

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

wanted to clear out my discord orbs quest page, so, let's do the ea sports fc thing!

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

okay so i downloaded ea sports fc from the ea app using the ea play pro subscription i forgot to cancel from back when ea still released games let's run it oh, wdym, not detected? 0% progress? wonder why

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

the world will never recover from this

dearie,,,,,

information at your paws

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

me when someone says no to hanging out

norma!~@ntauthority.me

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

i forgot what this is from but #mood

I WAS SO CLOSE

oh no this week we got 97 67 67 67 6 76 6 676 7 77 67676767 67 67676 76 767 6 76 76 767

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

this shader preload is protected by ricochet anti-cheat

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

all i want is to have friends to hang out with it's been my goal for the past 20 years but i just keep fucking up and it's hard to compete against all the instant gratification online things

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

it is beyond cruel that discord's 'account limitations' let people dm you and you see their messages fine but you're not allowed to reply or even tell them that you're not allowed to reply so all they see is you willingly just ignoring their dms

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norma!~

@ntauthority.me

all the other patients also just ignored me maybe they were scared the same would happen to them if they talked to me maybe they were too tied up in their own reasons

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

there were a few more reasons this was the most autism-unfriendly mental ward ever lying staff to get 'outside privileges' you had to convince another patient who had them to let you come with them extremely unclear goalposts other patients stealing my shit and getting away with it

it's like that time when i was locked up in a mental ward got tied to a bed for an indefinite timespan as a 'torture' punishment out in view of all the other patients in my own vomit for a whole day everyone ignoring anything i asked or said no matter how much i screamed there was no help

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

i didn't even know what time it was as there was no clock i just had to guess sometimes i would ask for the time and they'd reply sometimes they wouldn't

there's some in-game thing i have to show up to tomorrow that's organized in a discord server i can't join their vc with the limitations active and i can't send a message saying 'hey i'm revoking my registration' it's also a closed server so i can't join on an alt so they'll just see a no-show

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

worst part is i'll be able to see them ping me going 'hey show up' 'hey status' but i have no mouth

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

ctrl alt delete was a mistake

ily

this is all textbook self sabotage how the fuck does a professional mental health care organization not fucking realize this even after this long

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

i do like how even though i can sense it coming for hours before it actually happens nothing i do helps and if anything it makes it worse

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

if anyone ever has a bpd breakdown and wants to get nuked off discord i recommend sending something akin to 'all [religion] must die! glory to [country that the us is at war with]' anywhere and even if you say right after 'i am a bad person i must be punished' they will go 'hateful conduct' anyway

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

self-sabotage is far too easy

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

this is why im scared of going to the cop shit i just have to like sit still and not react and they will punish me

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

i am so scared of the cop shit and even thinking about it makes me lose my mind i cant do that i fucking cant

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

'oh see you did bad thing so obviously they'd do that' if they were humane they'd see i was struggling and either ignore it or reach out or ..... not fucking make it worse by isolating me

i need friends

i have had a breakdown for hours nobody replied yet discord fucking 'took action' as i 'broke community guidelines'

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

i'm trying to talk to my friends not the 'community' of a trillion dollar corporation

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

YOUY ALL BROKE MY LFI0E GHUIDELOSINBEWA

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

this is why i wanna have in person friends so i can't get fucking banned for having a breakdown

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

but then cops happen anyway if there's a fight and even though the friend didn't file charges the cops just do it

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

and then i keep being threatened with shit like 'show up at some time and place to give a dna sample or we will use violence' and i fucking n can't i can't teleport i can't be there on the time they want me to be all i want is peace and quiet and to be with my friends

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

how do i get my friends back how of i get friend a if

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

i can't resave any one anymore

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

i can't message my friends i am not allowed to anymore why do all my abusers get to do all they want why do discord and the cops and everything keep threatening and punishing. me when my abusers get off scot free when they themselves engage in abuse

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

if o don't get access to my friends back i may actually kms

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

rly love how silicon valley tech elitists fucking punish people for having a bpd breakdown

norma!~

@ntauthority.me

like i legit asked for a ban and they give one instead of reaching out or just ignoring it or reading the fucking context i guess isolating people from their friends is reasonable punishment as it's not 'my friends', it's 'discord's users'