Pesky Rabbit Dev 🏳️‍⚧️

I finally felt good enough to do some game dev last night. I had some ideas to go in an incremental game direction, but I think I might go in a, make a real game direction. I feel good about it, for the first time in a couple of weeks.

It appears the US government is trying to tie everything you say online to your govt. ID and severely limit what your allowed to say even more. I try not to be political and/or unwell on this account, but it does seem like we are rapidly approaching a point where I can say nothing.

I'm glad this new Green Lantern show is both exposing how dumb Green Lantern Lore is and how horrifying the idea of Intergalactic Space cops would be.

I have been a lot more charitable to AI, a lot more than I should have, but it has almost completely fallen out of my workflow. Ironically, it got me better about reading documentation and seeking to improve as a creator. Its like, only as good as an college intern at everything you give it.

So what's the status of the Witcher. Do people even care about it anymore. I only played the first two games and gave up on the third a few hours in, with no interest to ever go back. I haven't watched the shows. Nobody talks about it around me.

Every Time I rewatch the X-Files, I agree more and more anti-Mulder and pro-deep state. Get wrecked Mulder. You shouldn't be ab FBI agent, if the unresolved trauma of your Sister disappearance is affecting your job performance this much.

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I should start writing and releasing materials on Dungeon Mastering. I've been doing a lot to figure out how to make adventures fun, how to curb murder hoboism, unsettling behavior and also how to tell the difference between an evil person and a person with a mental illness.

I am growing increasingly fond of games that are, a bunch of shit has fallen on the floor and someone needs to pick it up and catalogue it. store.steampowered.com/app/4197610/...

We had an NES and a Sega Master System when I was kid. I remember playing Ys a kid and these npc portraits making the world feel so alive, and full of wounder.

I played Caves of Qud for the first time. I love that it has a Ys based combat system.

It always fucks me up to be reminded that games should be fun to play. You should have fun playing your own game. The only game I ever finished where ones I could replay the levels over and over in testing.

Whatever, this is a new era for the still unnamed user that runs this. Now more cowering in pain, I'm going to stand tall... in pain. Maybe I'll be in less of it when I get girl chemicals injected into me. The more feminine I get, the more powerful I will become.

I've been following this 7 year old tutorial for a Zelda clone. The funny part, is that I know all this. I could have done all this, so far, by myself. I guess I've always been very ashamed of my coding skill. I guess a game that looks like a child wrote the script, is better than no game.

I love the movie Equilibrium, for the reactionary slop that it is. I like it, because it is about the last 2 weeks of this completely ridiculous society, before it falls apart. I think on this most resent rewatch, I think Christian Bale was the last and only guy on the drug.

I hate listening to any kind of game development talk, because every word is drenched in this completely miserable need for nothing to devalue the profitability of the product. I think Tim Cain is the dev that doesn't make me hate myself. I want to make things, not generate profit.

I have been going back to fallout 3. I didn't have the context for it at the time, but I didn't realize that President John Henry Eden is constantly saying Gul Dukat lines. Are you happy America?

All I want to do is read books and think about the adventures I want my party to go on. Instead I have to throw my life away to help build a 250 miles transmission line for a data center. All I want to do is think about Fallout, that costs nobody anything.

I finally get it nerds. The Silmarillion is, what if the Bible was fun and didn't suck.

I was going to look up what Long John Silver wears for a pirate High Captain of Luskan and you know what, this is the Long John Silver I grew up with, lol

It appears that all my feed is just JE Sawyer, hyperfixation posting, so I guess I didn't miss anything from the last time I logged in.

Oh hey. I completely got around that ID verification thing by not doing it and waiting until they stopped asking me.

I'm sure that this new fallout project has nothing todo with the fact that their popular TV show is now completely out of popular material to plunder.

I think I've come around on the new star fox. From what I've seen, it is a faithful recreation that at least measured equally to 64. My only complaint is it doesn't have the same voice acting that is burned into my memory, but that's a personal problem.

Its fine. I can just play the trans card from now on as to why I will always be eternally too tired to do anything.

Toby Fox... How come you get to make games about your childhood trauma and met Nintendo Guys and my childhood trauma just makes it impossible to even stay on top of getting my meds every month and the only people I meet are grizzled land surveyors.

I love the Balder's Gate 3 Dialogue system because you are able to not press people on things. I am in general, non confrontational person. I rescued a scared child and I was able to pick, glad everything worked out, instead of reddit quip, insult child or insult adult. I hate Todd Howard, lol.

Google, show me an ad where the first word immediately reveals that this product is going to be dogshit before even work starts on it.

Dark souls but its open world like Shadow of the Colossus. Like the areas with the bosses are swarming with enemies, but to get there, you have to do like a Death Stranding amount of walking through dead landscapes.

Damn Arc raiders was 7 months ago. I think that was the last time I had anything in my life that wasn't overwhelmingly stressful to deal with.

Since accepting I was trans, I've kind of gave up on everything after putting so much effort to try and put my life together. Writing a Dungeons and Dragons campaign has really been my only output. I atleast have all this to read through now.

Here'a an idea for a video @jesawyer.bsky.social . Have you ever hosted any ttrpgs out of settings not normally associated with a ttrpg. I once did a SeaQuest DSV game as a joke. I found this in a half price books, my dad showed the Prisoner to me as a kid.

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I've been going back to adventure time. It gets to a certain point, around the time that Finn starts creeping on the Flame Princess, where the show stops being fun and just becomes an existential nightmare.

@greatdismal.bsky.social thank you for inventing the Cyberpunk genre. I wish there was more of it. Maybe one day I can finish a work in the genre that people will find as inspirational as I found Neuromancer.

I've been using Ali Express and unlike American retailers that seem to want to put as much friction in your lives as possible, the app experience makes me actually want to use it.

I got 3 days off, I downloaded godot. I don't give a fuck about anything.

You know, the faded memories of John Carroll Lynch's character in the Drew Carey show seeking non confirming gender representation was probably the only trans affirming media I had to hold onto over the last 3 decades it took to find self acceptance. I couldn't find him to message.

There is a lot to say about how Valve could be doing better, but any article you see like this was paid for with the goal to have steam destroyed and replaced with nothing.

Hopefully next year I'm more woman for International Women's Day.