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It was pouring today after I left work and the cab had another passenger. He got dropped off at a place I used to live at and just being inside the bounds of those gates made me nostalgic. I still miss living there.

I'll be honest I hate opening myself up for critique online when it comes to art. Not because I think I'm perfect, hell no, but because in online spaces it feels like there's always someone in the group that's looking for their chance to humiliate you and I don't wanna deal with that

I worry a lot that my ability to really connect with others is completely shot now that I've been through so much trauma and disappointment related to those things. Expressing myself fully simply doesn't feel normal to me anymore and it's been bothering me for a while now

I think i just feel this way because I've been seeing some friends going out and having interactions with the ease I could only dream of. Meanwhile I get to go out with friends and stuff at times but apart from that I'm pretty isolated and I've felt broken for years

was never a big fan of art takes that amount to "(x) group are fundamentally incapable of depicting (y) thing correctly or respectfully" There's plenty of bad art but not everything comes from a bad place, that's a reductive thought process to have. it makes you hate shit before even looking at it

It's always eaten me up inside to think that the internet is what it is now. Just a toxic space where everybody hates everybody, when much earlier in my life, I had gotten into using it because I wanted to connect with people who were different from me to begin with. Shit just sucks now

And it's disappointing to me that the solution I'm faced with is that I'll have to just stop really trying to be online for a while. I don't know if anyone else feels the same way, but I'm so exhausted. I can't even bring myself to feel welcome in spaces related to my own hobbies anymore

I'm still happy I managed to get all the platinums in this game. If you're wondering why I'm on NTCS-J, it was so I could play a version where the secret level times load correctly. Also I ran into a bug where I was able to do the second cortex fight when I was still missing one gem

I'm still happy I managed to get all the platinums in this game. If you're wondering why I'm on NTCS-J, it was so I could play a version where the secret level times load correctly. Also I ran into a bug where I was able to do the second cortex fight when I was still missing one gem

I always wanted to make a sort of journal comic about my problems because it could help my expression and generally be fun but doing so would involve so many deeply personal things for me that sharing it on social media might be dangerous with how hostile audiences can be and that's a shame

It would be nice to share my own story in a creative and entertaining way through doodles. I know for a fact it's very likely that at least twitter would bully me though.