Raguna | Last of His Kind |

4 July 2025

I wanted to follow up on this, because I'm still okay, and my silence isn't indicative of anything being worse. That said, some things are better. Some things are worse. It's kind of a wash. I'm very grateful for my friends. I'm trying very hard to not be a downer. I'm trying to handle it.

Raguna | Last of His Kind |@ragunavt.streamer.blue

I know I've been apologizing for being quiet a lot lately. And I kinda just keep being vague about dealing with some stuff. Truth is it is some pretty heavy stuff. I thought taking a long break from social media might help. It really hasn't. I'll explain below. TW: self-harm 🧵 incoming

But if I'm being totally honest, I'm not really handling it well and I wish I didn't feel this way. Thanks for listening to me. Thanks for being my friend. Thanks for letting me be vulnerable. I genuinely appreciate it.

I hope it doesn't. I hope I find a way to stop these feelings. I really don't want to feel this way. I want to make people laugh and smile and love and feel their own joy. I'm sorry if this was heavy. I'm just kind of tired of dancing around it... (Cont)

So the TL;DR is, I'm feeling lonely and sad and I'm having suicidal ideation, but I'm safe and functioning and not acting on or making plans to act on the ideation. And if that changes I will tell people and do what I gotta do to keep myself safe. I promise. I just wanted you all to know. Love you

Again I'm safe. No plans to do anything. There's stuff I still want to do and I'm looking forward to. For example in July of next year is something I'm really hoping I get to do. So I really really don't want to alarm anyone. I'm not trying to scare anyone. I'm fine. I promise. (Cont)

What I mean by inevitable is it just feels that is how I will eventually end. It won't be sickness or old age or an accident. It'll just be a sad story like "Raguna, at age 65, left this story by his own hand" kind of deal. It just feels like that's what is gonna happen. (Cont)

But the ideation is extremely strong. Because it's starting to feel like the only way to escape the feeling of isolation is to simply not feel anything. To cease. I just feel so alone and tired and beat down all the time. I'm candidly unhappy. But I have no idea what I'm unhappy with. (Cont)

So the truth is I've been quiet and just focused on my new job and trying to stream because I've been hoping this would pass. But it's still here. And it's constant. Daily. At this point it feels less like a thought than a conclusion. Not an imminent one though, to be clear. (Cont)

There's no real way to beat around the bush here. I've been in a very dark place. Just a really intense feeling of not belonging. I've been trying to be cheerful and upbeat and I won't pretend there aren't moments of joy. There are. But the truth of it is I feel extremely alone. (Cont)

@kitsunegames.bsky.social

Some of you might not know this but I've attempted to exit this life before. Two times total. I don't share this for pity or to alarm anyone. I'm safe. I'm not doing anything. There are no current plans or actions to hurt myself previous attempts were triggered by intense emotion. I'm calm. (Cont)

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@vice-kappatain.vtubers.social

Eyes forward. Hands shaking as they ache. Goals in sight. Does the struggle make it all the sweeter or does the echo of the pain dull the victory? He can't say. He can only move forward.

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Deadly Premonition is still one of my favorite bad games. Thanks again everyone for joining! Shoutouts to @lunriilu.bsky.social , @ragunavt.streamer.blue & @zakkarii.bsky.social for the raids! We raided out to @manysharpteeth.bsky.social, doing a snack tier list! GG!

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SPOOKTOBER III, The Wandering Dream BEGINS. We're kicking it off with Deadly Premonition! www.twitch.tv/vice_kappatain #ENVtuber | #Vtuber | #Vsky

First day of my new job and I'm nervous like a kid going to a new school... U.U

There are no woke games - there are just bad people who really like whistling at dogs. Picture unrelated... ... or is it?

17 Sept

I wanna do more things with friends but I'm a recluse u_u

11 Sept

So this got stuck in my drafts somehow? Anyway on Tuesday, @vice-kappatain.vtubers.social and @yamishirokami.vtubers.social raided me and they are badass and cool. Thanks guys.

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We are LIVE. Also got a copy of the game to give away. Come say hi! twitch.tv/RagunaVT #WelcomeToElderfield #IndieGame #RagunaLIVE #Eldenwood

Raguna | Last of His Kind |@ragunavt.streamer.blue

2P EST, gonna be playing Welcome to Elderfield until I pass out. Come by. Enjoy the creepy cozy vibes. Talk about life. Maybe even win your own copy? Eh? Ehhh? :3 twitch.tv/RagunaVT

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2P EST, gonna be playing Welcome to Elderfield until I pass out. Come by. Enjoy the creepy cozy vibes. Talk about life. Maybe even win your own copy? Eh? Ehhh? :3 twitch.tv/RagunaVT

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Holy crap, they actually did this store.steampowered.com/curator/4628...

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Is There a Fishing Minigame?

@fishingminigames.bsky.social

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It's my second post about it in just as many days but, if you haven't already, be sure to check out my new TRPG 'One Final Wish, Before We Leave'! I'm very proud of it and I do believe it's the best thing I have ever written, and I'd love feedback! #ttrpg #ttrpgdev #indiegame #indiedev

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My new TTRPG, 'One Final Wish, Before We Leave', has officially released! Please be sure to check it out and give feedback! I'm insanely proud of this one, I put a lot of emotion and feeling into making it perfect. #ttrpg #ttrpgdev #indiegame #indiedev thorneishere.itch.io/one-final-wi...

9 Sept

If you were here right now, I'd probably let you down... ... on the couch while we sit and watch the entirety of Kamen Rider Den-O, as I try to explain the time train. #MorningsWithRaguna

8 Sept

Not a funny ha ha post today. More a minor vent. I'm frustrated that I've been in a sour mood because I don't want to be. It's affecting my ability to do the things I want to do. I just feel tired all the time and it sucks. I'm running on empty and I'm not sure how to fix it. U_U

7 Sept

Everyone knows I'm really bad at math but that's okay. I don't count it as a flaw. #MorningsWithRaguna

6 Sept

The world doesn't revolve around you but we all have people in our orbit. Be someone worth gravitating to. <3

You sink into the couch with a heavy sigh and feel the world around the edges of your vision darken. When's the last time you were here? You didn't even hear him enter. His smile is soft as he hands you the drink before sitting beside you. No words. His head rests on your shoulder. You're okay.

You're alone, staring at the screen. It wasn't real. Or was it? Does it really matter? If you close your eyes and focus, there he is eager. You can hear his soft breathing. Feel his warmth. Is it all in your mind? And even so... does that matter? Because you're still here. You're okay.

You sit with him. Or alone. He's a comforting presence. Or maybe just a comforting thought. Still... you're able to enjoy it. Think about it. Your mind is still your own. You are still your own. He believes in you, even if you're not sure you believe in him. That's okay. You're okay.

I just want to let you know No matter which way winds may blow I will always stand up by your side You can always call upon me And when it's time to go I'll trek with you through the snow Because together we will fight Defying so called destiny Oh we'll fight Don't let them take away your light

I'm writing a book about the effectiveness of reverse psychology. Not sure why I'm sharing this though because I don't want anyone to read it. #MorningsWithRaguna

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炸毛矛Rathlen🐀

@fluffyrat.bsky.social

Global IQ drops by a millionfold, while rats remain unchanged.

I grew up in GA so this tracks mydialect.us/quiz-standar...

"People would like you better if you were a girl." That was said to me about a month ago now, unsolicited in my DMs by someone I don't really know. Truth is I think they're right, but I wouldn't like myself more. It's stuck with me though because it isn't the first time that's been said to me. 🧵

Anyway, would you like me better if I was a girl? It isn't a trick question. Not here to shame anyone. And I've no interest in changing who and what I am. I'm just curious. I wanna know why. No one ever tells me why. I can only speculate and that goes nowhere. No answers makes the thought last. 🧵

Thanks for listening. I'm just tying to understand things.

Since I've been open about being a "femboy" or whatever label you wanna call me, I've gotten comments like this with some regularity. I don't think it's wrong. I do think there are people who would like me better if I was female identifying. I've had the thought myself. But it's always external. 🧵

People might like me more. But I wouldn't like me more. I like being a boy who exists in contrast to what that is "supposed" to mean. But the reason I'm talking about it is... it wears on me a bit. It kind of feels like this reminder that I'm not really seen for me. My identity is mostly a fetish. 🧵

After yesterday's status about math, I thought I'd move on to history but... I think that will get old... #MorningsWithRaguna

3 Sept

The problem with math is, statistically speaking,virtually half of the results are below average. #MorningsWithRaguna

2 Sept

I'm gonna be pretty quiet this month because I'm really head down working on things... Reach me on discord or other methods n.n;

30 Aug

Last week really threw me for a loop. I'm working on getting shit back together.

27 Aug

You're doing great. It might not feel like it, but you are. You're making people smile even if you don't see it. Someone took a deep breath and pushed through the bullshit because of you. And you'll do the same because of someone else. We're not so easily broken. Come on. We got this ❤️

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25 Aug

Hearing that Dolly has passed really sucks... but please look into things like this to keep her legacy alive. She was amazing and it's up to us now.

Alex Zalben@azalben.bsky.social

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19 Aug

I'm also streaming with this tonight but watch Cheeki's PoV anyway you cowards. twitch.tv/cheekighost

Cheeki | Veil Traveler 🧑‍🚀🩻🌌@cheekighost.bsky.social

Hello curious wanderers, tonight I'm celebrating a dear friend's birthday: @hime.vtubers.social ! I will be streaming my POV as we all hang out and get up to some snowy shenanigans in Sledding Game! Going 🔴 LIVE 🔴 at 7PM CDT! www.twitch.tv/cheekighost (My POV)

19 Aug

The Netflix adaptation of Death Note. It's actually an insanely good adaptation but people wanted a 1:1 recreation and that's so boring.

andy [known agitator]@meltedmasks.me

"i hate a popular thing" is mostly boring sooooo instead tell me the piece of media you love despite everyone else hating it me? i have many, but the two that spring to mind are Milla Jovovich film Ultraviolet which i own twice accidentally, PS3 game NeverDead, and Super Mario Bros. (film, 1993)

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18 Aug

Live with more stranger of paradise twitch.tv/RagunaVT