Rainbow Zilla

🔴LIVE Phasmo?! Then.. things and stuff?! Charity! tiltify.com/@rainbowzill... rainbowzilla.co.uk twitch.tv/rainbowzilla

New badges for next month!! Thanks @maplecatart.bsky.social tArt for the awesome artwork!!!

We are raising money for The Blue Cross for another year! We have no goal, we have no milestones or anything like that, but we do have pins, socks and calendars available this year and the designs are awesome! tiltify.com/@rainbowzill...

Not only did we get our second Pinata event today during stream, but more importantly the community raised £246 for The Blue Cross, helping so many animals within hours of us joining in with the fundraising!! Thank you so much! tilt.fyi/yY28Fod5IK

🔴LIVE I don't know what I'm doing But we are raising money in the last week for animals in need for another year! tiltify.com/@rainbowzill... rainbowzilla.co.uk twitch.tv/rainbowzilla

Does anyone else hold their own hands when they're hurting and needing comfort?

During London MCM yesterday I found some adorable Witch Hat Atelier stickers for my sticker book 💜 Sticker book: ko-fi.com/s/c913f741c5

Tired but off to #LondonMCM today! Meeting Vivienne Madrano & Aleks Lee!! I'm so excited and nervous!! Also watching a certain @nikoheart.com Elden Run Speedrun on a Nokia 3310 at the live stage 13:00 - 13:45 Anyone else going?!

🔴LIVE Painting Models with Namofthenorse! Last stream until Monday rainbowzilla.co.uk twitch.tv/rainbowzilla

🔴LIVE We've been sponsored to play Enshrouded which is the perfect excuse for me to finally play it!! Yay!!! Thank you so much!! #ad rainbowzilla.co.uk twitch.tv/rainbowzilla

Depression has me pretty bad today but I still did my official weigh in Wednesday for the first time since the 16th of September before I left for Australia 5.7lbs / 2.58kg down Not bad while I ate terribly for nearly a month Lowest weight since I was 11 years old now Have a Mabel

🔴LIVE Espeon chats and plays games? Maybe? Yap Yap? rainbowzilla.co.uk twitch.tv/rainbowzilla

BPD is so hard I'm so proud of myself for battling through it with PTSD, PMOS & Neuro spicy brain Loss, abandonment and rejection are my greatest fears I've not lost 1 of the closest people to me recently, the dynamic changed but our worth is still the same Death is far worse Silly brain

🔴LIVE First stream back in the UK Exhausted and emotional, but missed you guys so much rainbowzilla.co.uk twitch.tv/rainbowzilla

Christmas products everywhere! More than Hallowen! Compared to Australia it's so much to come back too 😂

It's hard to come back and be happy to be home but immediately remember your life from before and how much work you put into your home and stream life while missing your loved ones you've just left Especially when your loved ones are doing the same so communication slows 💜

Having intense emotions means that in times like now when I'm exhausted, overwhelmed and incredibly sensitive emotionally.. I can't listen to any old music, can't eat or drink whatever either I have to be calm, listen to calm music, drink water and numb my mind until I can sleep Just me?

Start of the long journey home Going to miss so much Pay off my loan and I can consider my future

Soon I'm leaving for the airport for the 33 hours of travel alone I'm terrified and scared of several things. Don't get me wrong, I'm looking forward to being back for many reasons But fuck, please send love in messages/comments 🥺

Palworld has made a pretty fun game! I want more packs. Do you think if I ask nicely..? @en-palworld.pocketpair.jp

I'm being a good girl in the last few days of my trip here with my money. Bills come first But why do I have to find these blind box kitties and a giant magikarp plush?! $50 AUD for another blind box $100 AUD for the magikarp ko-fi.com/rainbow_zilla if anyone wants to be my sugar daddy 😂😂

Borderline Personality Disorder is born from abandonment and neglect as a child Anything I love I'm terrified to lose So leaving Australia and not knowing what the future holds has me terrified Please bear with me for being at my worst at the moment 🫂💜

Yesterday a bunch of us went to Tanuki Studio in Australia after PAX I've really wanted to do this for years! Everything was amazing in every way Thank you @justshads.bsky.social for the amazing pictures from the 1st tattoo of 2 💜🥰😍

🔴 LIVE Tattoos in Australia! Twitch.tv/rainbowzilla

Thank you for an amazing second PAX @paxaus.bsky.social which taught me to learn to play card games and talk to new people 💜 Everyone and everything has been wonderful Meeting new and current friends has been a delight 🥰 Only my bank account complains 😅

If people are wanting to find me today at PAX AUS then I'll be at the Magic The Gathering booth all day doing sealed drafts Just let me know when you're on your way as it's a very time sensitive event 😊💜 (and if anyone wants to fund a collector booster then £32 to my PayPal 😂)

It's funny after a wonderful day how I can get in bed and convince myself I'm too much, stop being happy because it's selfish when it's me I'm meant to be responsible. Need to sleep. Stop being excited and wanting to talk and share with loved ones, otherwise I'll lose them 🥲

Day 2 of @paxaus.bsky.social My feet are boogaloo 🥲 These pins are amazing!

I am not awake for this 😂 But at PAX now, woo!

See you tomorrow at @paxaus.bsky.social !!!

Got my @paxaus.bsky.social badge! Exciting!! My second PAX I'm attending from the UK! Who am I meeting?!

When I was 11 I was around the same weight I am today in AUS and went to a few horse riding lessons Unfortunately my mum would say some unkind things and stopped the lessons My weight gain ramped up after that and I've never been able to get under 80kg since I was 12. I'm 39 now

Normalise telling your loved ones how much you love and appreciate them Life is both beautiful and terrifying No one should feel alone Cast aside your personal feelings and just appreciate what you have Learn from all the experiences you've had

I think I brought the British weather over with me 😂 Been raining 3 days in a row

Amazing 39th birthday around my Aussie friends! I was so overwhelmed sbc wish I took a group photo but I'm incredibly grateful for the time, effort and money people spent to be with me 🥰 Homemade matcha strawberry birthday cake, mini golf, MTG, good food and company 💜

We making birthday cake for meeeee All for meeeee Nom

🔴LIVE Turning 39 in Australia!! Pokémon ETB opening Show and tell Catching up! rainbowzilla.co.uk twitch.tv/rainbowzilla

It's a bit weird and sad knowing this year my uncle isn't around for his birthday which was always the day before mine I felt closer to him as we were the only Libras in the family, now I'm that only one Silly little things huh? 😅

Rest in peace, Ben Incredible wrestler I had the honour to see live 7 years ago at a small venue and always loved seeing him fly in the ring So surprised he's gone at only 40 😔

Was so good to see @veronalights.bsky.social live in Melbourne last Friday! Excellent venue and company too! 📍Shotkickers, Thornbury, VIC

My haul today 😍

So much room!!! Gone are the days where I need to ask for a seat belt extension. I'm 6.35kg/1 stone lighter than last time I flew in May as well ☺️

A long shower feels even better in an overpriced hotel room 🤭 Get that monies worth and my anxiety feels much better! Man I love Australia but I hate the 13 1/2 hour and 7 1/2 flights tomorrow 🫤 I get so restless and can't sleep, even with Diltziaprem!

Thank you for today!!! So grateful for our cheesy community!! 🥹💛 So excited to announce this coming Saturday is our 90's Nostalgia Party and you're invited!! We'll be playing retro games, looking at fun throwbacks and more! 🥰 So excited!!!

8st 3lbs / 52.2kg / 39.8% of my body weight lost since I was last in Australia. Insane..

Treated myself to a tasty drink and meal after feeling like I couldn't eat at all Sometimes I get so anxious that I struggle to do anything when I need to pack my luggage for a big trip I'm so very excited But very nervous over so many things Just need to get on with it

In 48 hours I'll be at my gate waiting for my first plane of 2 to Australia Suppose I should pack

New top who dis It was only £5 and I'm kinda lacking Autumn clothes with the weight loss A bit tighter than I'm used to so I can slim into it ☺️

🔴LIVE Last UK Stream until the 19th of October! rainbowzilla.co.uk twitch.tv/rainbowzilla

See my house mate play a shop simulator game Remember card shop sim has a new update I'll just quickly get the craving out of my system .... 2 hours later and I'm way past my bed time