sluggbee

sluggbee

@sluggbee.bsky.social

24 | 🏳️‍⚧️ (she/her) 🇨🇱 | ace 18+ (sometimes gore/upsetting stuff)

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another long for stab at getting thoughts and frustrations out of my mind. tentatively queer life crisis, pt. 2 but in plain text (now without the text error)

i've been redoing my actual "true"sona to be a) more visually interesting and b) look more gloomy, cus in real life im not just a timid nervous wreck, im that but also look like im gonna fall asleep any minute (+ light case of resting bitch face)

getting a lil sick of being like strategically blocked into a corner on the subway train by couples where the man is basically trying to rail their girlfriend in public with how aggressive they are about their physicality. shit is so uncomfortable.

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visual art is the greatest, thinking of making more fills me with so much inspiration and joy. i exist to draw pretty and ugly things, to rip out my guts and insides and put them on display in a canvas. everything else going on is beyond the desires of my soul.

this bulletin board of miscellaneous thoughts and doodles, like an open journal but more obtuse and vague. its nice to share even if i have no idea who im sharing it with half the time.

i lay in bed i stare at a crack in the ceiling im no one i think of passing cars im someone else i feel the warmth of dim lights im somewhere else im the happiest when i’m not myself i stare at a crack in the ceiling i feel cold the mind goes numb i lay in bed i think of someone else i’m here.

all my displays of affection are i guess platonic in nature or perceived like that, so if i feel anything beyond that for someone im pretty much screwed. that or my attempts to break out of my shyness are very small and hard to notice, it sucks that i struggle so bad :(

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Fun fact: Fruit Iterators isn't as good as "Recursive Chocolate Bites," but nobody really understands how to eat that cereal.

if i made an account specifically for the very intense posts, thoughts and stuff like the graphic labeled drawings, would anyone at all want to even know it exists?