taitoki

taitoki

@taitoki.bsky.social

26 // ΘΔ // discord:taitoki // musician // http://taitoki.bandcamp.com, http://soundcloud.com/taitoki / http://taitoki.tumblr.com / pfp: Kirbins.art

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i dont believe people can be 100% selfish or be bad friends out of nowhere, but its weird when someone whose a friend just.. stops considering you? its weird, idk, it doesnt seem like it was on purpose but its REAL easy to go down that thinking

The recent news about Jacob Geller SA'ing someone in college has shaken me more than i would've originally thought. It feels parasocial and complicated within my mind as someone who had been SA'd before. There is an obvious and objective truth that what he had done is a great evil.

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theres significant pain on the daily, remembering what happened to me, what did it mean, what happened. why me? did i ask for it? am i the monster? the nature of it has become a corrosive vapor in my mind, its no longer reliable information in my brain.

The recent news about Jacob Geller SA'ing someone in college has shaken me more than i would've originally thought. It feels parasocial and complicated within my mind as someone who had been SA'd before. There is an obvious and objective truth that what he had done is a great evil.

perhaps i need therapy, perhaps i need to move on, perhaps im dwelling on a nothing burger. but in highschool i was SA'd for a non-insignificant duration of a relationship, and as the years gone by i have flipped endlessly between "im a victim" and "i think i pressured for it" and "they're a victim"

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hello! it's been a long time since i've asked for help, but i don't know what else to do at this point. my shoulder blew itself the fuck up and it's been making it almost impossible to sleep, work, relax, etc. expenses are rolling in and i'm stressed out & anxious (1/2)