Willow 🌳

Fuck it. I'm just posting whatever under this post. Lemme know what strikes your fancy! I need motivation to finish anything at this point. I'll remake a project if I need to.

I'm sorry you felt the need to abuse me. I wish it could have been different. I'll miss you. ❤️‍🩹

Hell yeah. Turns out, I don't like being non-consensually abused. Crazy right? I haven't cried that hard in a long time.

What's worse, driving in heavy rain or crying while driving?

Getting police so hardcore I can't even text my girlfriends without a nightly skimming of every conversation. lol Feelsgoodman

Don't think I've ever had Pho but tripe is so gosh darn good omg. I always love it in Menudo.

I've got this ID I've had floating around for a while. I wish I knew where I could upload it.. Oh my dumbass forgot I have a SoundCloud. Hold on... This is a circa 2017 id that I want to find again sadge on.soundcloud.com/Nn9RD16u2Chd...

Me @ 9pm when I'm with someone I trust ❤️❤️❤️

Priorities are in the right place. Xd

Prepare To Cry™

Gf made me deactivate Twitter because she said I flirt too much. I think I've had that account since 2011. Sucks to let something that old go. But I'm hopeful that it'll work out for the better.

That's me fr 😭😭

2 months out of work nearly. Would anyone want to teach me a new skill? Lol

I'll be bringing an ice cream sandwich to my interview, and if you're a nice interviewer I'll let you have a bite

Damn. Am I like, literally a day too late on VRChat? 😂 😂 Looks like shit is really hitting the fan rn.

And of course, I'd rather post about it online publicly because that makes sense right? The mind is a funny thing.

Opened up a little in group tonight... I'm in shambles. 🫠 I feel horrible letting people in on what I'm struggling with privately.

@wookieedubs.bsky.social I'd be chatting on the interweb; Maggots pray upon the living dead; I had no interest in the things she said; On the phone every day; I'll permenantly hit the hay, hey!

Decorating the tree tonight.

Feelin' pretty good today 💕

Where can I find the audacity to just post whatever online. Lmao I think I'd rather do it anonymously than have a handle tied to it. Smh.

Where can I find the audacity to just post whatever online. Lmao I think I'd rather do it anonymously than have a handle tied to it. Smh.

If you can't handle me at my xD you don't deserve me at my >:3

Procrastinating reassembling this Ps5. Fug.

Dang. I should move to Minnesota or Colorado. The fuck are all these politics. Wish I paid attention to this more when I was younger.

Sega Genesis, Contra Hard Corps. It's an absolute GOAT of a game and I recommend playing it for at least 3 of the 6 endings. Lol Also the OST is straight gas. No notes. This was peak vidya game music.

I hate when I’m hit with a weapon or elemental damage type that corresponds to my weakness

I'm too afraid to publicly post wips most of the time. Gosh darnit.

Had one of my hardest days yet yesterday. I sat still for a complete 4 hours trying to calm myself down from taking my own life. I know if I were to leave home yesterday I wouldn't be here. I chalk a good amount of me not actually following through as "I'm afraid I'll survive, so I don't even try."

Too awkward to text the crisis line. Fml can't even bring myself to send a damn message Not giving in to that urge is hard :/

Kinda sad tonight. Gonna sleep in my car.

Had a woman message me last night asking me about her mans. I knew him since Highschool and he doesn't know I'm Trans. She was getting all mad because I guess he sent me a reel at some point. Needless to say, it was a nice hit of euphoria making a cis woman jealous without doing anything. Winning.

Hell yeah. Self destruction mode is coming soon. I can feel it.

Chat am I cooked?

So, bills are piling up and I'm a month plus with no job, just interview after interview. Ive spent more in gas going to all of these places than I made in the last month.. My life is in shambles. 🫠

This is my biggest pitfall as an artist. Judging my work too harshly. I shut myself off from a lot of caring and supportive people because of this.