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so how's everyone's week going, i'll start: got held at gunpoint yesterday because some walter white wannabe had decided i had stolen money from him, which is cool and not at all a situation i had never even imagined myself in and now i'm afraid to go outside

Have sleepwalked three times (that I know of) in the past four months, which is three times more than in my entire life up until June. Apparently it can be, like, an extremely rare side effect of my current meds (like, rare to a point of contention). I must say, not a fan.

I have an appointment with my psychiatrist in two weeks anyways and I'm obviously going to bring this up, hope he has some ideas. But man. Why is it that every time a new medication seems to kinda work a little it also fucks up some other part of me.

Have sleepwalked three times (that I know of) in the past four months, which is three times more than in my entire life up until June. Apparently it can be, like, an extremely rare side effect of my current meds (like, rare to a point of contention). I must say, not a fan.

I mean I haven't done anything too unnerving that I'm aware of, twice I placed an empty drinking glass next to my pillow, and this last time I went to sleep on the couch next to the dog. I vaguely remember doing these things, but I can't remember why I did them.

love it that whenever i need to cry a little bit i can just watch that part of ikoku nikki ep 8 when asa reads the excerpt about loss in one of makio's books, gets me every fucking time

That thing when a dog's asleep and its little toes twitch just a little bit? That's a good thing.

Wöf's struggles with higher education continue, it's all just ChatGPT all the way down (and where it's not, Copilot barges in).

it's 5:30 am and i'm listening to i will never give up on you (the only track i've ever had or wanted to have from the vld ost) and literally wailing

we could've had it aaaaaaalllll

Why am I running everywhere? Oh, that's just because I'm decrepit and have an inflamed tendon in my thigh that makes my entire leg catch fire when I walk. Why can I run without pain? Guess it's just one of those things! The human body is so weird.

I hate cooking and generally don't really care what food tastes like as long as it's not actively gross, but I've been oven roasting aubergine a lot this summer and whenever I take out a new batch I cry a little bc holy goddamn shit that's good

it's fun how meat eaters tell you that they can't enjoy food if it has no part of a carcass in it, but literally every exceptionally delicious food I've ever had has been meatless

Going back to school for a bit, and the 100 page report about global megatrends as they pertain to the future of Finland that I had to read to prepare for Monday's orientation day sucked the very marrow out of my bones with how overwhelmingly stupid it was.

Is getting a master's worth putting this kind of burden on my last two remaining neurons, only time will tell.

leafing through old sheith zines on my bookshelf and man, we did have a good thing going didn't we

the finnish names on kimiai are killing me (some of them are spelled weirdly in romaji even though the characters say them the normal way but eh, still finnish)

Sorry to get self-pitying for a second, but I'm feeling some kind of way once again so might as well make it other people's problem bc what else is social media for lol

(This was brought to you by my sister asking me if I still ever thought about dating, and me being devastated to learn that a person who should know me better than anyone had, at some point, begun to assume I was alone by choice, because apparently the alternative was unfathomable to her.)

Sorry to get self-pitying for a second, but I'm feeling some kind of way once again so might as well make it other people's problem bc what else is social media for lol

I mean it's not anyone's fault but mine, I haven't had the courage to approach anyone myself bc I'm gross, and I've been too scared to ask anyone if they know someone who might be interested bc I'm too scared they find me so ugly and unpleasant they'd never recommend my company to anyone.

Sorry to get self-pitying for a second, but I'm feeling some kind of way once again so might as well make it other people's problem bc what else is social media for lol

So. I am feeling lonely. In the romantic sense. Back in my teens and early 20s I was very sad about it, yes, but some part of me still assumed that romance was in my cards, eventually.

Continuing with heartwarming dog stories, yesterday his butt was super itchy so I took a look, and long story short I have now removed an attached tick off of a dog's actual asshole. So that's something cool to put on my CV, along with that time I pulled a tapeworm out of Ruska's ass.