Zaoda 🏳️‍⚧️

Zaoda 🏳️‍⚧️

@zaoda.bsky.social

Trans artist trying to survive in the world She/Her Webcomic 🔹 https://nextlifewebcomic.wordpress.com/ Youtube 🔹 https://www.youtube.com/@ZaodaZone ArtStation 🔹 https://www.artstation.com/zaoda Ko-fi 🔹 https://ko-fi.com/zaodazone

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it always tears me apart when i meet people and they say I have an incredible voice, or that my art is amazing, and i should be able to make a ton of money off of shit, Cause i'm not, i'm always broke, i feel broken, and the lack of success up to this point must just be because i'm broken.

I think any good story is a mix of these things. For me, i'll have a vague idea for the world, and the themes around it, then main characters will emerge from that, and the setting will often change and refine based on who those characters are, and then they grow up together.

Weeknight Writers@weeknightwriters.bsky.social

Q1: Do you build your world to suit your story and/or characters or does the world come to you first? #WeeknightWriters

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I'm on about 2 days without eating, and struggling to keep focused, but I'm working out a kind-of plan.. I need to get motivated and start actually doing comms and work again, instead of languishing. I have a lto of stuff in the que to finish, first though..

Zaoda 🏳️‍⚧️@zaoda.bsky.social

Posting up a new one of these to get ahead of things if i can, trying to plan ahead for some bills, etc. I've fallen way behind on artwork and other things and am making a forced effort to get myself caught up this month! Pls bear with me all is loved #mutualaid #kofi ko-fi.com/zaodazone/go...

I'm sure this is a regular problem artists have, but i really struggle with doing commissions, I feel like people are handing me something sacred, their ideas, and i'm juggling these delicate glass figures that 1 wrong move will shatter forever, And i get stunlocked by the potential guilt of it

I'm on about 2 days without eating, and struggling to keep focused, but I'm working out a kind-of plan.. I need to get motivated and start actually doing comms and work again, instead of languishing. I have a lto of stuff in the que to finish, first though..

Zaoda 🏳️‍⚧️@zaoda.bsky.social

Posting up a new one of these to get ahead of things if i can, trying to plan ahead for some bills, etc. I've fallen way behind on artwork and other things and am making a forced effort to get myself caught up this month! Pls bear with me all is loved #mutualaid #kofi ko-fi.com/zaodazone/go...

Holy crap. I've been on this flipped, upside down sleep cycle now and can' escape it and i hate it. Pls, my online friends, I am a morning person, i cannot be staying up till 7AM hanging out with you without consequences x_x

Lots of fun WIPs of these two, I really love writing / drawing arguments between characters I've been wanting to just draw more one-off little scenes of either of them lately, but have been slow with art cause of depression

It's such a disconnect how much most, average people recognize AI as being crap. "vibe coding" and slop, The backlash is very real, and despite being loud, the pro-AI people tend to feel very small But i still constantly see articles just outright stating things like "AI has conquered coding!"

Production on the comic has been slow enough that i find myself "creatively anxious" again, where my head just keeps pooling full of ideas with nowhere to go. it's driving me insane.

it's doubly stupid cause work on the comic is only as slow as it is because of depression, my art in general suffers from it, i've basically been at a standstill with all my work, And at the back of my head it's like "just get over it" but obviously more complicated than that.

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This is actually getting pretty rough, i'm out of supplies and maybe a day away from running out of real food, And i can't use my art software until i pay for it, (it's cheap though, like 10 dollars,)

Zaoda 🏳️‍⚧️@zaoda.bsky.social

Hey everyone, recent food drive was pretty sparse and won't last very long, so i'm taking donations to help cover until the next one (oct 3rd), Trying to avoid another awful starvation stretch :( Also need to cover the annual payment for my clip studio access! ko-fi.com/zaodazone/go...

This is actually getting pretty rough, i'm out of supplies and maybe a day away from running out of real food, And i can't use my art software until i pay for it, (it's cheap though, like 10 dollars,)

Zaoda 🏳️‍⚧️@zaoda.bsky.social

Hey everyone, recent food drive was pretty sparse and won't last very long, so i'm taking donations to help cover until the next one (oct 3rd), Trying to avoid another awful starvation stretch :( Also need to cover the annual payment for my clip studio access! ko-fi.com/zaodazone/go...

I'm hoping to start making income from work, but honestly looking for a different job at this point as this one isn't working out.. as always, any and all help is super appreciated and i barely ever have the words for how much it all melts me into pieces ;( <3

I really hate how debate culture has poisoned so much discourse. It's pretty common now for people you encounter to engage with you in the style of a modern debate, looking for gotchas and wedges to undermine the things your saying. I should say, i LOVE debates, but this is so stupid in conversation

the point of a debate is to criticize their arguments for the audience, not to change the mind of your opposing interlocutor. But so many people are convinced that's why we debate topics. And so they take these tactics into regular conversations where their goal IS to change someone's mind.

And so you get these annoying, heated exchanges between people who are communicating in a way that's often reserved for the show of making somebody look foolish to the people watching, It's annoying!!!

Anyone wondering what first Auri's weapon is gonna be, to pair up with Rhodek's "Party Crasher" war mace, it's this. The TROUBLE CLEFF. ((And if you think i can resist stupid puns, you're WRONG.))

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still looking for help! Still on this never ending treadmill until things are sorted up here at home x_x

Zaoda 🏳️‍⚧️@zaoda.bsky.social

ko-fi.com/zaodazone/go... Still trying to fill this out, I gotta pay for my phone and other upcoming bills as well as keeping food on the table!! of course all support is loved, and i'm trying to keep from falling into a starvation stretch!

Trying to crawl out of this depression pit so i can work on commissions again, It's a struggle to even draw for my own, my usual motivation tricks haven't been working. It's a spiral since being behind on things (including my own comic / just personal sketching) makes me feel extremely guilty,

on VRC and some poor person came up to me to say they read my webcomic and that it was great, but i was so groggy and tired i had no idea what to say, so it just turned super awkward until they left and i have felt terrible ALL DAY about it lmao