Zingo

I'm able to use my drawing tablet again, which means back to practising my digital art! Here's a drawing of Shine. Its clunky and terrible but I'm just happy to be drawing again like this. #digitalart #art #dog #digitalartist

‼️CW‼️ for sibling desth and descriptions of death. My sister died a month ago and I wrote this. I posted it to Tumblr and I guess Bluesky can also burden my woes

But she exceeded all expectations by living sixteen years. She was healthy for the majority of those years and most of all: she was happy. I love you, Sarebear. Keeping laughing up there, won't you?

‼️CW‼️ for sibling desth and descriptions of death. My sister died a month ago and I wrote this. I posted it to Tumblr and I guess Bluesky can also burden my woes

No one prepared me for death. But it had to have arrived eventually. And no matter how it would have come. No matter how slow or how quick. I would have never been prepared any way.

‼️CW‼️ for sibling desth and descriptions of death. My sister died a month ago and I wrote this. I posted it to Tumblr and I guess Bluesky can also burden my woes

No one prepares you for the aftermath, you see the quick version of it in movies and shows. But you don't see the financial struggle. You don't understand the decisions that have to be made. What songs should be played, compiling photos, writing an eulogy.

‼️CW‼️ for sibling desth and descriptions of death. My sister died a month ago and I wrote this. I posted it to Tumblr and I guess Bluesky can also burden my woes

I knew I would one day I would attend her funeral, but never so soon. 16 years wasn't enough. I should have had kids, I should have been married, I should have been able to support my mother more, take control of the situation.

‼️CW‼️ for sibling desth and descriptions of death. My sister died a month ago and I wrote this. I posted it to Tumblr and I guess Bluesky can also burden my woes

I began to question why people send flowers as condolences. Why are they reminding me that all things die as I watch the flowers begin to droop, their petals shrivel, their colours fade.

‼️CW‼️ for sibling desth and descriptions of death. My sister died a month ago and I wrote this. I posted it to Tumblr and I guess Bluesky can also burden my woes

You aren't prepared for it. You don't know what to do. You cry. You tremble. You shower and scrub your skin raw; now that part you've read in books, and now you understand why its done. It's not to remove the memory, it's to remove the pain, the agony, to remove what cannot be undone.

‼️CW‼️ for sibling desth and descriptions of death. My sister died a month ago and I wrote this. I posted it to Tumblr and I guess Bluesky can also burden my woes

No one prepares you for the smell. For when your sister throws up the contents of her bowels as she drowns from within, as you feel underneath her nose for her breath, as your father does CPR, as he screams for help; no one prepares you.

‼️CW‼️ for sibling desth and descriptions of death. My sister died a month ago and I wrote this. I posted it to Tumblr and I guess Bluesky can also burden my woes

No one prepares you for the abundance of food, for where there should be no leftovers, suddenly tupperware is taking space in the fridge.

‼️CW‼️ for sibling desth and descriptions of death. My sister died a month ago and I wrote this. I posted it to Tumblr and I guess Bluesky can also burden my woes