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All that to say, I don't take the money at all because I don't trust these terms as outlined. I'm doing something cool right now and I'm doing it on pennies stolen when I can and I would be devastated to be offered everything I need to do it so long as I essentially throw it away at the end.

It feels so difficult to take this seriously because of how comically perverse it feels to even imagine spending time not being dedicated to productivity to survive. Even if I had the year, I'd likely spend it trying to learn a language or continuing to hone skills I want to use professionally.

Allowed!

Build the "infrastructure" that would make it easier to make my ideas public once the year is up. Be compelled to make notes or plans about ideas I'd had anyway ... which then I think means I'm figuring out how to hide that from the hypothetical funders, or how to usurp them ...

I would do so much travel. I would go everywhere, and spend actually long periods of time in each place.

I would do nothing but read. I love working with words so much that I often find myself spending more time writing than reading, and I totally understand how bad for me that is.

Build a solar-powered backyard cabin for my kiddo to grow into, and both learn and teach her how everything in it works.

I would be incredibly fine with it. The pressure to publish and be constantly and relentlessly productive sucks any possible joy from my life. I actually hate it. My worth being measured in what I can produce/sell/create makes me feel inadequate and desperate every day of my life