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moving over to bluesky from twitter was huge for my mental health because twitter sucked so bad but over the years bluesky has now become pretty much just as bad because well it is also literally just twitter. we did build the demon again to be fair

using this site makes me very anxious. i am hyper-aware of how visible i am, how easy it is to create enemies and upset people with random posts you might not have thought through, which in turn makes you less vulnerable online, which in turn makes you come across as even more standoffish etc

so the timeline becomes a place for only your most strongly held opinions or irreverent jokes, sometimes both at the same time, and combined with the constant pressure to weigh in on daily discourse it leads to an environment that naturally cultivates a vibe of appearing callous and superior

which is all to say i don't want to be that. i don't think i am that, but i do think a feed where i post "gay gerard way be like have you fucked a dude and gave head" next to angry communist politics next to video game opinions maybe 3 people on earth agree creates a strange impression of me lmao

there was a time when being quite good at this made people more connected and employable and i think we have reached a tipping point a long time ago that the exact opposite is true of both