Did'nt get much done but headache is really defeating everything else right now.
Got like 1 thing mostly done, sketches for comms start tomorrow unless something else happens I'm sorry :(
(having like 3 screens at once + headache = ow
Had the amazing Opportunity to create the Volunteer pin for @gatewayfurmeet.org !
Thank you to @vixenbrushstudios.com for the opportunity and being so sweet and kind!
I love making merch for events, when approached about going my first ever Furcon pin I was so excited! Thank you again!
Bare minimum like 70 items btw most were at lowest $5 a pop from a retail of $26
I was really desperate but now I'm at home I wish I just sold them normally I'm.so stupid
Sorry for being doom and gloom
It's been really rough past few days, HP is sick and trying to recover and just been hit with a lot of PTSD.
Ive been with HP today so commissions will hopefully resume tomorrow
I'm really upset though because I really liked this store but I understand there needs to be money made but my lowball on EVERYTHING a whole shopping cart full was $150. Maybe $120
I only got $80.. I regret so much now selling stuff to them
so, I finally made a throne wishlist (rephrased shush)
right now it just has two things on it, one being more important than the other
feel free to throw something at these to help me out
throne.com/melodismol
I didn't want to admit this but that pedophille who pony people worked with is
Why my entire pelvic floor is completely ruined
I can't keep my bladder in check my bowels horrid due to his direct SA on me.
That's what I'm going to physical therapy for
I'm so embrassed for admitting this
Im going to work on commissions as hard as I can the past few days have been difficult
Maybe it's a BPD spiral but after those commissions. I don't know if I'll have a will to exist
I'm so alone and today it's a breaking point
Those things were beyond way beyond 2 years old
It's going to be the 8th anniversary of my release from my groomer soon, but what he's done is why I'm so physically ill his abuse on me is a permanent PHYSICAL marking on my body that doctors say won't correct and I need lifellong treatment for
Even with my extreme illnesses mostly untreated at that time it was still my responsibility on how to vent it, should've been a private chat not an private account.
I see people who beg for vent priv accts on here being the same who bashed me for having one when I needed to vent. I don't understand
I don't understand why there's a double standard with me. If someone else does the exact same thing it's praised?
I don't understand I'll never truly understand everyone in the situation is older than me.
No use of trying to explain myself
Out of context screenshots so so damn many of them on an vent account to a select few friends
weaponized because a pedophile my rapist who groomed me since the age of 13 decided to do that to attempt to ruin my life while working with notable people to hurt me.
I can't step into a place without people glaring at me
I know what I did
I know it was wrong now
Ive done all that I can to be a better person
Yet all I am is a monster all I am is some screwup that isn't welcomed in pony spaces anymore it breaks my heart so many times over that Idk what to do
btw!!! if anyone is/was interested in these two, I have them up for sale on ebay (mercari was being a butt about payment details). Make me an offer if you feel they're too expensive, just trying to get back a little bit of what they're currently worth! www.ebay.com/itm/13787477...
I was happy to help with the production of also the tote bags (production only)
I wasnt able to attend so I couldn't make much art but I'm happy to have helped in someways!
Next in our shoutouts is @baja.bsky.social !
Baja made the artwork for the acrylic mothman standee and was reused on the staff crossbody bags!
🔗 beacons.ai/bajagryphon
Next in our shoutouts is @baja.bsky.social !
Baja made the artwork for the acrylic mothman standee and was reused on the staff crossbody bags!
🔗 beacons.ai/bajagryphon
Me: "oh boy I want a full body art of my character! For post convention"
Furries/Furcon AA/DD: "Headshot/ Badges only"
I feel like I'm the only dealer who offers full body artwork at cons anymore.. I really don't want badges ngl..
I'm not saying AT convention completion. Just sucks that any artist I find in dealers rooms only do busts/headshots for comms in general
It works for them but man it sucks for me it's a small stupid thing just sucks because I'm particular about art styles
MLP KAYOU #TCG/ CCG PEEPS! / #PONYSKY
Feel free to friend me on MLPEKAYOU along with checking out what cards I also got for sale!
This free independent site now has both CN & NA checklists, 3D turnarounds, and more in one
Their discord is awesome too
💚: www.mlpekayou.community/Baja%20
I guess an unreleased Pinkie Pie figure is like not being talked about at all??
I guess this was handed out to people at NYCC her eyes are something but the CARD
It's frustrating to be at a low point,
For my abuser who gloats about making so much money beg for money then shortly after say they didn't need it after all and say how many digits they make an hour to make YOU feel bad for not making the same exact life choices& in chain of generational wealth
I'm just tired and exhausted to be in a state of struggling to be trying to get better in many ways to be more healthy despite my disabilities and hindering. How many pounds of hair I've pulled out due to my abuser, how much blood and tears for them to sit on a damn throne
It makes my stomach turn
It's frustrating to be at a low point,
For my abuser who gloats about making so much money beg for money then shortly after say they didn't need it after all and say how many digits they make an hour to make YOU feel bad for not making the same exact life choices& in chain of generational wealth
I know this is me going back to old habits just I cant keep it inside I need to at least know that the communities that were built from such kind and generous people being constantly abused like piggybanks,then straight up lying to people's faces straight into their eyes it's disgusting so sickening
It's frustrating to be at a low point,
For my abuser who gloats about making so much money beg for money then shortly after say they didn't need it after all and say how many digits they make an hour to make YOU feel bad for not making the same exact life choices& in chain of generational wealth
This is all in clear broad daylight public information all public! I'm so surprised to see so many people keep falling for this situation
My abuser saying this shit I really have to grit my teeth hoping they don't chip
amount of people being taken advantage of by them I can't say a single thing
I risk my physical safety if I came out, it's how they arranged this.
Maybe I'm rattling my bird cage a bit too much saying this but I'm so damn tired of seeing others struggle and them beating others down for being in an unforgiving world!
I'm shaking, lied to so many ruined my life now therapy
I guess an unreleased Pinkie Pie figure is like not being talked about at all??
I guess this was handed out to people at NYCC her eyes are something but the CARD
BEHOLD THE OVERSIZED HOODIE
A new YCH I now have available for those that want to look like a very comfy gremlin, with pony and furry versions available (complex OCs may be simplified for the style)
ko-fi.com/c/967b6a8687#ych#commission#furry#mlp#brony#art
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We are currently building our coffers up to pay for business expenses, but the sooner we get that sorted the sooner we can expand our hardware fleet!
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Im at a loss, Im going to try my best to make an new post and new goal
Since the con didnt go well for me, and i cant sell any collectables IRL till december and more expenses im just gonna try to recollect my thoughts and try to breathe
Emergency #Commissions 🎨
I've been struggling having Late Expenses. Due to health I had to close commissions for months which has hindered me. Along with a recent car repair $$$+
I'm selling belongings, Opening up slots & specials help recover
Thank you so much!
☕ ko-fi.com/baja#ponysky#furry
NEW ..But not so New
TEEPUBLIC STORE!
We are putting Retired Designs on there so people can have access to them!
While we don't get a huge cut, every sale helps!
👕: www.teepublic.com/lic/b_ngyaBF...
SALES ARE ON NEW DESIGNS!!
I found (2) More Pinkies & Still have the Last Mad Hatter Discord!
These will not be remade, and unless I find some deep in stock these are the last ones I have!
#mlp#ponysky#mylittlepony
They are available here:
🎀 kaijuriotus.etsy.com/listing/4575...
🎩 kaijuriotus.etsy.com/listing/1654...