Dabble

I forget I'm disabled and then I get a little bit stressed and my body and mind are like: youtu.be/OhYWNPzBuiM?...

Watched Deadbeat at Dawn (1988). Pretty great for what it was. Per IMDB shot over 4 years with no filming permits. Stunts and martial arts actually pretty good. Gooshy practical effects. Set in Dayton, OH. Note: for some reason some of the gang members wore jockstraps outside of their jeans.

Sometimes I sigh and wonder what it would have been like if I had been able to take a conventional path in life. To have some boring but sustaining desk job, a house, a car and a couple of vacations a year.

The truth is that desire is a fantasy. The security that dream is based on has been pilfered and ravaged. The truth is that now we will have to fight tooth and nail to claw back the right not to bake to death from the hands of a group of mentally ill ghouls.

Was thinking about eating more vegetarian but salad is out of the question now. I was asking myself if I could just eat 2 sweet potatoes every day for lunch. Just bring in butter and chili crisp. Maybe just roast a bunch of vegetables.

Being autistic and trying to chat someone up is frustrating but I got to laugh about it. I call it being socially hard of hearing. I'm not sure what faces mean, I have trouble reading tone of voice and am unsure of social cues and body language and my tone of voice is flat.

I feel like I'm playing a crap quick time event minigame on a busted controller. LoL We still ball though. I'm proud of myself. Playing QWOP in my brain whenever I speak to someone, running on manual full time. It doesn't help that my neutral face looks like I wanna murder.

There were times I was barely on the Internet and times I binged it. I didn't on Twitter till near the end due to autistic contrarianism. I'm watching a video on kamtube which is a currently running clone of old school YouTube which was something I had never experienced.

IDK how other people use Bluesky but usually I just scroll through my mutuals and check a list of favorite artists.

Dumb thought: What if elves are smooth twinky boys because they can actually grow amazing beards but they signed a treaty to end a war with the Dwarves and one of the stipulations is that they foresake their beards. It happened so long ago that everyone forgot except the elves.

youtu.be/PtzLn3_MTS8?... Funny night. PGE shut off our power to work on something. Spouse made an amazing dinner of scratch Sunday gravy, pork Parmesan and battered asparagus and broccoli. Once the power went off we watched The Bay of Blood on my phone because my mobile hotspot wouldn't work.

We couldn't just go to bed early because we both use CPAPs. The movie was pretty good especially being from the 70s. One of the funniest things was when they pulled an octopus of a corpse's face and the Foley artist just made one large THWOP sound because they couldn't figure out what to do. 🤣

Before Pride is over I want to make this post I kept forgetting. I want to say I'm proud to be Pansexual, fat and Agender. I still: struggle with internalized biphobia, have moments of body dysmorphia, feel disconnected with how people see me and how I experience myself.

My every breath will be political. My every heartbeat will be political. Every drop of blood in my veins will be political as well. I am queer in the present, as I will be in the future as I was in the past.

Before Pride is over I want to make this post I kept forgetting. I want to say I'm proud to be Pansexual, fat and Agender. I still: struggle with internalized biphobia, have moments of body dysmorphia, feel disconnected with how people see me and how I experience myself.

youtu.be/zEMJe-if_N8?... The link goes to right before the scene in the thumbnail where the big guy engages in acts that could look like a power exchange feeding scene. One of my first FWBs looked a lot like the big guy so he drives me crazy. Bald guys and guys with shaved heads are way hot IMO 🥵