bunny on computer .ᐟ ⊹ ࣪ ˖ ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁₊ ⊹

big fat breakdown

it must suck to be around me because im so fucking miserable all the goddamn time. like jesus christ i get sick of this enough i cant imagine

i hate just using this account to vent but like i dont wanna dump this shit on main

im so convenient.

i hate just using this account to vent but like i dont wanna dump this shit on main

but

i hate just using this account to vent but like i dont wanna dump this shit on main

i love her to pieces and im glad she has people to check in on her i just. uh. haha. why dont i! that sucks!! lmao!!!!

i hate just using this account to vent but like i dont wanna dump this shit on main

im so miserable lol.

dude my health has been so fucking bad im so fucking angry i havent been able to work basically at fucking all

if this becomes my new normal i might fucking kill myself

dude my health has been so fucking bad im so fucking angry i havent been able to work basically at fucking all

like between the brain fog and the chronic fatigue and the horrible fucking gut pain and the nausea like. dude jesus christ

its really hard being transparent about things sometimes but i feel like it might be important to some extent. like i feel bad about letting people in on the fact that im like. ambiently an 8 on the suicidal ideation meter at all times and it just tilts between sides dependant on the day

oh my god that new gemini. holy fuck

GOD that's right now that kane's done filming backrooms he can go back to work on people still live here I'M SO!!!!!!

oh my god that new gemini. holy fuck

horror's in such a good place rn. jesus christ. oh my god man.

oh my god that new gemini. holy fuck

i need to see if this shit has a priv server up or something i miss it bad

like i'm ✨ fucking losing it ✨

but i am so fucking deeply incapable of viewing it in any other light like to DEAL with me is a fucking nightmare i'm so exhausted of myself but i'm FORCED to deal with this because it's my brain and my body i cannot imagine what it's like to be subject to it on the outside of that requirement

like i'm ✨ fucking losing it ✨

it's been worse than it's been in a really long time on the bpd front and i'm getting really frustrated with my lack of hold on it because i pride myself on having this shit down pat but i guess MAYBE it was simply that i was not in a lot of situations that could've set it off