⋆˙⟡Jackie⛧ִֶָ࣪☾.

so funny little story time! our stores sushi department lead, keeps giving me free food! from sticky bun trays, to full rolls of sushi. or even just discounting stuff I buy. wanna know why I think he does? his name is "Taiga" but everyone calls him "Tiger" I even asked to make sure I was right.

I'll always chuckle when I think about how, in canon. Jack's sword is meant to be SUPER dense. but his femboy frame swings it around like a stick he found on the ground. anyone else tries lifting that thing, is liable to get a back injury. 🎨 - @/munkeesgomu.bsky.social

tonight, in a strange way. I feel happy with how my old friend group departed. not because of us breaking apart. but because in the end, everyone seems to be doing better. every last one of us in some capacity is happier. or in a position to live a better life. and it makes me feel bittersweet.

new friends are fuckin' cool too. not everyday someone treats you like a prince. ya know whats it like to have someone actually watch your stream, especially things they never seen before. and be engaged in it? it's life changing. like I'm not just background noise anymore.

tonight, in a strange way. I feel happy with how my old friend group departed. not because of us breaking apart. but because in the end, everyone seems to be doing better. every last one of us in some capacity is happier. or in a position to live a better life. and it makes me feel bittersweet.

dunno why I like to just take some moments to myself and reflect but I do. I think everyone is good now. I don't gotta watch out for them, or worry about them anymore. they're all happy. they're doing well. and if I'm not part of their lives anymore, I'm ok with that. cuz in the end. they're ok.

tonight, in a strange way. I feel happy with how my old friend group departed. not because of us breaking apart. but because in the end, everyone seems to be doing better. every last one of us in some capacity is happier. or in a position to live a better life. and it makes me feel bittersweet.

one has a group he can be himself around and they all love him. I feel it best to just let him go, he deserves some actual happiness. another is finally in a better spot in life. another homie is grinding away, but living it up good. we still chat, but thats as close as we'll prolly ever get again.

bleegh feeling so shallow cuz I got something good going, yet he points out how much I need to attention from others. because I simply "don't get enough" from the one I should. and just ugh. it feels wrong, but it's a good feeling to actually be wanted. to be desired.

is it bad to use some friends sexual advances as like, inspiration for character writing? didn't think I was still worth trying to compete over, and prove yourself as better over another. yet here we are eheh.