Dextra Hoffman

Damn photogenic ass cat. I’m working through this therapy program. It’s hard. I am going to start getting into more intense work next week which I am both looking forward to and dreading. I do still need help with covering the costs, so if you don’t mind, check out the link below.

I’m gonna make some chili later since the weather is finally seasonally appropriate. Might even get crazy and doodle something later.

I need some help. I'm in a really precarious spot right now because I need to be able to pay for medications, copays and food. And I would be able to handle that, but my short term disability isn't paying out until they get the required documentation from my doctors.

I’ve been hesitant to talk about my health issues because of how much I had to put myself out there because of the thyroid cancer. It’s been almost 3 years and it’s still a huge issue. If you’ve been here for a while, you know I was having to be very vulnerable just so I could survive.

I’m really tired, on a spiritual level, and just in general. It’s taken me a week to even get the nerve up to ask. With all this going on I’ve been isolating even more than usual. So this is me shoving myself out of my comfort (?) zone with what little bit of self preservation I have left.

I’ve been hesitant to talk about my health issues because of how much I had to put myself out there because of the thyroid cancer. It’s been almost 3 years and it’s still a huge issue. If you’ve been here for a while, you know I was having to be very vulnerable just so I could survive.

I have days where I feel kinda ok, but I’ve been so bogged down by all this shit that when I do feel ok, I get paranoid because I wonder if I’m actually feeling ok, or if it’s a fluke or a manic episode or something. I can’t trust my own mind because it’s my biggest opp, as the kids would say.

I’ve been hesitant to talk about my health issues because of how much I had to put myself out there because of the thyroid cancer. It’s been almost 3 years and it’s still a huge issue. If you’ve been here for a while, you know I was having to be very vulnerable just so I could survive.

So as a result of all that, I’m flat broke, have no idea when I’ll see another paycheck, I have to pay for my medication plus the copays for the appointments I have coming up. Hopefully someone will be able to either extend my leave or clear me so I can go back to work. I’m in limbo until then.

I’ve been hesitant to talk about my health issues because of how much I had to put myself out there because of the thyroid cancer. It’s been almost 3 years and it’s still a huge issue. If you’ve been here for a while, you know I was having to be very vulnerable just so I could survive.

She also told me she couldn’t help me with my disability paperwork (even though it was her predecessor who put me on leave), my psych meds, my thyroid meds, my HRT meds, etc. “But I can monitor your diabetes.” And offered to give me referrals to several other people.

I’ve been hesitant to talk about my health issues because of how much I had to put myself out there because of the thyroid cancer. It’s been almost 3 years and it’s still a huge issue. If you’ve been here for a while, you know I was having to be very vulnerable just so I could survive.

I have short term disability insurance that’s been providing 60% of my salary while I’m on leave. However they only paid me through mid-August. Meaning I’ve missed a couple paychecks because they require more information to keep paying me. That’s when the medical professional shenanigans come in.

I’ve been hesitant to talk about my health issues because of how much I had to put myself out there because of the thyroid cancer. It’s been almost 3 years and it’s still a huge issue. If you’ve been here for a while, you know I was having to be very vulnerable just so I could survive.

The last couple of years have been the hardest. We all know my mental health has always been precarious on my good days. I’ve tried not to harp on it too much, but in the last year I’ve lost my car, my home, and a whole lot of dignity.

I’ve been hesitant to talk about my health issues because of how much I had to put myself out there because of the thyroid cancer. It’s been almost 3 years and it’s still a huge issue. If you’ve been here for a while, you know I was having to be very vulnerable just so I could survive.

Y'all be careful with your mental health today. If you see posts about the flash flood in Nepal, just keep scrolling. I got smacked in the face with a video of the event with no context and saw the devastation. Don't do that to yourself.

I was one of the So Many of Us. He can go right to hell.