di.『🗡🎲』restart arc

please dont come friday. it'll just be a girl pissing and crying

one day im gonna name my daughter "verisimilitude" and im just gonna tell her to go by Veris or Simi but she'll always know what her mom did

a nice, gentle week :3 you might think there's no horror, but trust me, High Times is a di-personal horror...

hi folksss no stream today

we are going on a WHOLE journey! learning blender (mostly following tutorials), finishing up river city, then GAMINGGGGG

had a moment today at a restaurant. 2 filipino girls with their non-filipino boyfs i didnt mind it till i heard one, out loud and in filipino tell her friend "he's kind of boring sometimes" and her friend laughing and going "at least they're good in bed hahahaha" meanwhile the boyfs, unaware

i realized today that being on stream is the most 'me' i'll ever be. i only ever take my adhd medication while on stream. i'm only ever focused and truly thinking while i'm on stream. i'm an existence that's only truly alive on stage.

understand that my fighting style is fueled by a deep sense of shame and self hatred i dont WANT to be a shoto. i dont WANT to be a basic fireball throwing dp smashing tatsumaki kicking bitch but i didnt get to CHOOSE what im good good at i didnt CHOOSE THIS LIFE

i cant stop staring at sf6. i really wanna play Terryyyyy but i cant just keep picking up new fighting games

in order to combat my throat constantly drying out in the library ive resorted to chewing gum every hour of the work day ive become some delinquent ass gum chewing librarian

voice is a lil tired so no river city on wed! gonna be doing a spooky game on friday. i offer my blood to halloween spirits...

got an absolutely insane booklist request today. they like medical/wilderness fiction, as well as scifi. they list a buncha medical books and scifi they like what shes looking for? lgbt/canadian westerns with cowboys

lots of roleplay stuff cause guess what! i'm a teacher! time to play favorites and curve grades or something! Fs for everybody!

i spend a lot of my time plugged into things. my phone. pc. headphones so when im walking to and from work i leave the plugs out. try to allow myself to be bored.

....hit someone with the oops i dont work here cause i was going on my break and they found me at my desk station half an hour later...

i haven't been able to wipe off the manic pixie dream girl stains on my soul, answer i guess this indie emo sadboy could smell it cause he kept staring at me on the train and even followed me off it for like two blocks all the way to work you can tell he was cause he wore headphones in public

its 4am and im struggling to sleep and all i can think about are vtuber greetings/goodbyes thoughts on: hello: "How-Di!" bye: "Di-ya later!"

new scheduleeeeeeeeeeeee! more RiverCity Girls with @Iyzeekiil_DA, catching up on ALL the Holosongs i missed in the last 2 years, and a new minecraft server on fri :V

grapefruit is awful. i've tried every possible conceivable way to eat it. a litttle bit of salt here, a little sugar here, smoothie-ing it, boiling it, frying it into a pancake, salad-ing it--! if you THINK you like grapefruit you DON'T, you just like the SUGAR

found off my reddit! (which i complete forgot about :V)

so i learned about vtubers from gigguks vtuber vid october 2nd i started streaming SIXTEEN DAYS within seeing the video

GUYS MONSTER HUNTER IS A RAID LIKE EQUIP UP, LEARN THEIR ATTACK PATTERNS, DODGE, DPS, KNOW YOUR ROLE MONSTER HUNTER, FF14, AND RABBIT AND STEEL ARE THE SAME GAME

some goals: - make my own "project moon" - make enough from vtubing to support vtubing projects - get sponsored by a whiteboard company

hey folks! this is somewhat of an announcement! i'm. going to go back to form. within the next year i'll be preparing to *redebut* with a refresher on all aspects/angles with some big project ideas on the horizon hope you keep me in mind!

honestly just had one of the best days of my entire life - excellent stream with friends - played holotrials after - hung out in vc with other friends - went to go see a slasher with a friend and with an EXTREMELY queer crowd - served one of the best drinks and grilled cheeses ever

not sure where im walking to, but its probably somewhere in Japan

feeling decadent rn and all im doing is drinking lemonade out of a wine glass

scheduleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :V i always feel so weird about playing longterm rpgs but i've been REALLY loving grandia

trpg design question: how okay is it if your main dice system and your magic system work completely differently?? currently i have a dice chain d4/d6/d8/d10/d12 thing going on, but my magic system uses a xd6 dice pools is this too big a divergence? should they be aligned/working with each other??

so bored at this meeting i made a language cipher

NEW SCHEDULE TIME lots of grandia this week but ALSO we're gonna try making a new setting :V

HOLYYYYY WHADDYA MEANNNNNN VENOM IS SO HARDCORE

thoughts on hyperaccumulation di.bearblog.dev/1pg-essays-h...

after experiencing dantes inferno, i feel vastly more okay with self inserts in fiction if i do ever make a video game i will shamelessly insert myself thoroughly

ive always loved meta currencies because you can see them even being used in video game rpgs bravely default and octopath traveler building up bp??? expending them for additional turns, abilities, damage, hits? gorgeous

I'm not saying it doesn't HAPPEN, but "all weird indie TTRPGs are a kink thing" is reductive. There is also "designing RPGs to publish your worldbuilding bible", "designing RPGs because you invented a neat dice trick", "designing RPGs to win an argument", and "designing RPGs as an act of self harm".

SCHEDULE DIFFERENCE THIS WEEK i'm off to a funeral on Thurs :V so i'll be busy so no Thurs/Fri stream so bonus stream on wed with Tater :V

all rpgs, bar none